i find myself coming here EVEN MORE

since i quit smoking. every time i pause between anything i do, instead of having a smoke i get pulled in here. fucking bullshit, man. i need to cancel my internet or something. this is ridiculous. but i have a hard time going outside or anything without some plan of action. end up with nasty anxiety. LAME.

but here in a little bit i'll be able to go get my daughter from gym, visit with the neighbors. hopefully joey will be all played out. dave will be home. i REALLY want a smoke today, so i'm a bit fixated. sorry.

anyway, i think my three days of logical and reaonable behavior and general goodwill towards man should be coming up here in a couple days. something to look forward to, huh?

 

i just drink...not to forget mind you...just to remember...

 

lol. can't. gotta get my girls. i'll drink later.

my heart is actually kinda racing. bizarre. dave should be here soon.

 

My wife is about to stop smoking after her birthday and I am so not looking forward to that day!

 

dude. seriously. it's not fun. i was mostly okay, though, because i really wanted to quit. no major emotional breakdowns or psychotic fits. dave's been really happy. having a bad day today, though. did i mention that?

 

yeah,
lock me up in a rubber room the day i quit...cheers:cheers2:

 

I feel yah, hang in there though. Think of all the money you are going to save!

 

I'm gonna need to be locked in a rubber room when it's all said and done.

 

no doubt. really like that. now i have to switch back to vodka/diet sodas. the sheer calories i'm consuming, even though i'm drinking less, is still ludicrous.

 

i need another shot...

 

i hope that you get over the charles manson stare days. when my friend ellie quite smoking, she would space out and twitch sometimes and she looked like she had a charles manson stare. pretty crazy! good luck :cheers2:

 

Its the logicalway...

 

i simply more of a twitch than usual. but totally without guidance, interest of motivation. just twitchy and vapid.