i first ate acid in the late 90's in my late teens and i guess it's true what they say that your mindset has all the world to do with your trip.. of course i didn't understand it then and that's probably why i just came back from my LAST mental institution.. my last trip i tripped by myself and kept eating more and more everyday for a week (god i was stupid)... but now i realize that psychedelics are attractive because of the richness of selfdiscovery they afford.. i'm wondering if anyone else has been as naive in the past.. and don't get me wrong, i'm not saying the experience left a bad taste in my mouth, i like psychedelics... but anyway my trip of 5 or so years ended in a psychiatric diagnosis.. anyone else?
too much too fast can leave you with a warped, very personal perception of what existence actually is on planet earth. If insanity simply means a deviation from the conditioned 'norm', then so be it I feel for you man.
I agree with Hawaii but i also dont, its up to him ....but what went wrong after realizing that?....They put me into a severe case of culture shock but nothing more...But when i say severe i mean severe, but i do admit it was what i was looking for haha
cigarettes, i quit about a month ago... coffee, uh i don't like the crash.. but nowadays anything can be psychedelic.. or well a complete intellectual mind trip anyway.. the visuals for me were my constant changing perspective, at the time i hadn't formed any definite opinions (not that i should or shouldn't have) about my place in the world.. i think interpreting my trips is alot like interpreting dreams, it really can only be done by the individual affected...
When I was in HS, I got a bunch of microdots (they were sold as synthetic mesc, but were probably LSD). I would take them for days in a row, but definitely would reach a tolerance point where I could eat 5 and barely notice it. So, for whatever reason, I was not able to trip every day...it just didn't work after a while. When young on a HS trip, I took a few bags of mushrooms. I smoked hash with my buddies and took the mushrooms by myself. First 2 times, I tripped pretty normally and had a pretty reasonable time interacting with everyone and visiting museums, etc. 3rd time was at a dinner theater with Don Quixote as the play. I really thought I'd lost my mind. I remember being in the buffet and being completely lost as to what to do or what any of the food was. The visuals were incredibly intense and my mind shifted from amazement to paranoia and back again. Some of the backdrops for the play were just morphing and changing into faces and designs. Being so close to the sweaty bodies of the actors was very odd. I thought for sure I was going to be noticed, and there would be no way things wouldn't get bad. The teachers would have definitely sent me to a hospital if they talked to me much. I hadn't even told anyone I took it that time, and I was with a pretty straight laced crowd. Some would smoke herb, but most of my tripping buddies stayed home (primarily to do coke...but that's another story.) Just towards the end, after the play finished, I realized I made it and started to feel a little more down to earth. I remember having a cup of coffee and being amazed at how euphoric and energized it made me feel.
Certainly, most things are psychedelic in a post-use lsd world, but you have to realize that that's what psychedelics do, they completely alter the way you perceive everything. I had a trip a couple years ago where as I was coming up I was drinking shots of espresso, champagne, and smoking hash. Yeah, well now I can't drink any caffeine because it has an anxiety-ridden placebo effect, and same with the hash.
it's been 10 jahre but it's finally giving me and end date...it's the meaning of the sun and the moon...
my sense of friendship has heightned and my girlfriend we're still separated is so much closer...but then again i got the mental health career goin' for me..l.o.l. no i'm thinking parapsychiatry is not for me...i get better on or off the spirulina.
