Nothing to explain I watch Law and order SVU and seeing the characters struggling to face feelings I understand and cringing at the sight of action of have either heavily fantasized or done makes me feel closer to people then very few other things; I guess when I get really close to a woman and she knows me entirely and we just hold each other. Other than that Law and order SVU understands me as well as Lolita did, I confess it is true. I forget that some people and have and will know these sentiments, Law and order svu reminds me I am not alone.