Help! Need advice on love trip

So I was tripping hard on some blue meanies I got around campus several weeks ago. I have tripped a few times but this was my first time with psilocybin. The first part of the trip consisted of a really heavy body feeling, second was some mind blowing visuals consisting of huge auras around objects, things jutting out from the wall, etc. However, the last part, about the last hour or so I was locked into a horrible introspective experience where I could not stop thinking about my life.

While tripping, I kept thinking of this girl I had met when I first came to school in February. I talked to her a few times and chilled out with her and it seemed like we got along well. She asked me a lot about myself and wanted to talk to me. As I met more people in school, we gradually didn't talk much at all and I wasn't around the dorms. Nothing more than saying hello.

While I was tripping I guess I said I was in love with her. I didn't know I was saying it. My friend that I was tripping with then later goes and tells her about it.

So she comes knocking on my door while I am tripping telling me to open the door so (I don't want to say what she said but let's just say she wanted intimacy here). I got up, looked through the peephole and she looked like she wanted to tear me apart. I don't think she heard me in the room.

After the trip was over when I have run into her I have not talked to her at all. I feel scared because I am reminded of the trip. I didn't really enjoy parts of it and I felt horrible about it because I wasn't with people I could trust because of what happened.

Anyway, whenever I run into this girl she always tries to be nice and talk to me and I just give one word answers and walk away. Also, she acts strange and one night tried to sleep briefly right outside my door. I would think she would think I'm wierd/druggie/loser, etc. etc. but instead it seems like she wants to talk to me.

Anyway with just a few weeks of school left, I can either try to talk to her and see what happens and tell her about what happened or I can forget about it. Or I can try to find her next year, and I know where she will be. I plan on talking to her next year and just be like "hey you're the girl from my trip" or something. If anyone has taken the time to read this please help.

p.s. As far as I know she does not condone smoking herbs or my lifestyle but I do know she drinks excessively and smokes cigarettes.

 

Why put off till tomorrow, what can be done today?

 

when you said you were in love with her - did you mean it ? i know you were tripping - but if you did mean it - then whats holding you back from doing anything about it right now ? unless you rather do the chasing... you didn't give reasons as to why you want to put it off till later.

p.s. As far as I know she does not condone smoking herbs or my lifestyle but I do know she drinks excessively and smokes cigarettes.

or is this why you are putting it off ??

 

Thats not a good enough reason.


If she likes you enough, she wouldn't care if you smoked or not.