I have been in love with this guy for the past 2 1/2 years. About 2 years ago, he thought I did something really immature(long story) and has had a grudge on me ever since. We were never friends, but our parents are kinda family friends. He started college in the fall, so the last time I saw him was in july(until today) but I believe that I have changed and matured since the last time he saw me. The only opportunity I have of seeing him is at our brothers baseball games(they have 14 left, but 3 next sunday, and I can't go to all 3 cause it will look weird, so I'm down to 12). I really just want to talk to him as a friendly acquantince and see how he reacts, but I don't want him to immediately judge me. I can't get over him, but have been having doubts that it will happen. I saw him today, but only from a distance at our brothers baseball game. He was in the outfield with him family and I was on the bleachers. All I want to do is talk to him and see him. But I'm scared that it won't work out. What should I do?
People use the term "love" pretty casually, but if it's something really serious, I found from personal experience that it's best to just go for it. Back in early high school (the eighth grade was also at our high school, so I'm looking back to either eighth or ninth grade here), I ended up getting attached to a girl I had sort of known for a while. It got to where every thought was about her, and I'd lose sleep at night thinking about her and feeling this empty void inside me that needed her to fill. I developed a better friendship with her over the next couple years (through the tenth grade) but also developed increasingly more intense love of her, but I didn't want to jeopardize our friendship. That tenth grade year was most agonizing for me, especially since she was dating another guy and I had to just endure that. Near the end of the school year she talked about how her family might move about 300 miles from here and I may never see her again after the school year is over. On the last day of school I made up my mind that she had to know how I felt and I desperately searched all over but couldn't find her. The summer that followed was exquisitely miserable for me. Fortunately, on the first day of my junior year, she was still here. I didn't know what to do from that point, again fearing jeopardizing our friendship, but she had to know. I couldn't take it any longer and I just went straight for the throat, so to speak. I simply poured myself out to her and let her know how it was. Fortunately, we entered into a relationship and I was so happy. Unfortunately, her controlling, abusive step-father broke us up half a year later and pulled her out of school and had her tell me she never loved me and was cheating on me (years later I learned that it was not true). We never had a relationship ever since, but to this day, after roughly fifteen years, she is still the love of my life and I still think about her all the time, and my heart still has that same emptiness. The point is, if he's someone you really, really love, go for it. You never know when you'll never have another chance. If you wait around, you may end up waiting too long. Hopefully it will work out for you, but you won't know until you go for it, and if you dork around for too long you never know when you could forever lose any chance.
How old are you? Are you going to college soon? It sounds as if you are 17 or 18 and will be going off to college soon, yourself. He has moved on, maybe you should too. Suck it up, chalk it up to being young and realize as you mature even more, so will your emotions. This sounds like a pretty typical problem that a lot of people your age run into, and the best thing to do is not push the subject and move on.
this just breaks my heart but what would i do ? If we were families are friends – i figure there is a strong likelihood I’ll see him again, at other functions. In the mean time I would continue maturing and bettering yourself (like my qualities, interest, hobbies etc – personal development is always good) and if he’s truly interested – he’ll seek me out and find ways to know the real and hopeful better improved me.... hmm but the story from IceMan has got me torn... 2 and a half years ? omg*
