Kinda confused does it male me gay?

Ok so here's the thing...
I was at this party one time and a lot of us were drunk, not like a can't walk kinda drunk but still drunk. And one guy he was pretty drunk I don't even think he knew what was happening, but we sent him up to bed before we left to walk home. But I had forgot something at the house and went back. I went to check on my friend and he was there In bed but he only had boxers on, I was trying to get him to drink some water. After I did he took my hand and put it on his dick over his boxers and was making me rubb it. So I did and I didn't stop him. Then he got hard and took off his boxers. So Iwss jacking him off, until he pushed my head down I I was giving him head and chocking on him dick. After a while I stood up and we started to make out a lot with tounge and everything. And I unzipped and he gave me head. And we would make out and give each other head for a while then when we were making out I was on top of him a d I tried to put my dick in his ass and have sex with him but it didn't work. Then we gave each other head until we both came. I don't know if he remembers but I do and I think about it a lot it was really good I will admit and I liked it but it turns me on thinking about it. Then some times I'll look at guys at wonder what it would be like with them. I mean I like girls and all and I've had a gf but sometimes it secmes like I
attracted to guys? Dose this make me gay??

 

No it doesn't make you gay. You didn't give your age but I'm assuming High School age...??? It's not at all uncommon for guys to have same sex encounters during these formative years. It's called exploring. Some guys find out that they like it and will go on to become gay...others will discover they like both sexs and will be Bi-sexual...others will realize they are straight. It's pretty much that simple. As far as finding it pleasurable, remember that your dick is blind...it doesn't give a shit who is making it feel good, it just likes to feel good. So it could be possible to find physical pleasure while at the same time not feeling ok in your mind about who you are with.
Too bad alcohol was involved cause that could cloud up the whole situation. Now you can't be sure if your friend liked it or was so drunk he didn't know what he was doing. Try asking him if he remembers, if he says no maybe he's not ok with male to male sex. If he says yes then it's up to you. Have fun in life.

 

"Alcohol doesn't change you, it exposes you."

 

The question Am I gay or straight, is very hypothetical, meaning that it has very little practical relevance to having sex with someone, man or women. For example, imagine you make your mind up and you say "Well I am straight" At this point in time, what good does answering the question do? To me, it does very little, sure you like this type of body, but people are FAR FAR more than bodies, in the sense that merly understanding whether you are attracted to them, far underweighs the vital question of; how can you make your relationships better with all people, so as to create an avenue through which sexuality can be communicated comfortably and openly?

Dont get me wrong, the question is vital as well. But in the context you are in it is short of useless.|This question would be more useful if you were wanting to pick up someone and have sex with them the same night, then the question is vital...but in your present context it is essentially useless to partake in focusing in this question and it would only drain you with no reward.

You got nothing to loose anyways, just pleasure to gain, have fun with it all.

 

Maybe, in an ideal world that it so. But when people ask you what sexuality you are they want a label. Perhaps not conforming is a good idea but nontheless, the question can create one hell of a conflict in your head. The most annoying part is not knowing if you're just one way or are for both but once you've answered in it all that stress is gone.

That is why people need to confirm it with themselves.

 

I know many, including me, who answered the question and had to revisit it numerous times. I just eventually realized what came with the first post and I have not lost anything, in fact I have only gained pleasure because it trully had no impact on my life, besides the stresses that you talk about.

And also, your claim of not conforming is also wrong. I understand the question as contextual and useful, depending on the situation. Judging from this situation, it would be useless to answere the question.

 

The question probably roots from the confusion of, "What the fuck did I just do?!". Panic, much.

As I said though, just do whatever.