Cancer...does it cause a terrible aspect of your life in one way or the other? Fear or the fear of others? Why? It is nothing more than a prolonged process of dying. And of course we all fear dying. So cancer doesnt scare us but dying does. And cancer allows us more time for reflection that makes the process of dying harder. Not to mention the worse part of cancer, chemo. It allows you the chance to survive in remission. But ultimately its a painful way to attempt to live an average of twenty years longer. So you can live your life, knowledgably uncomfortable with your health, and one day go into a coma or have organ failure (much like that of a heart attack), or you can discover your affliction and speed the process into pure sickness, and either die in this manner or live in the fear that one day your affliction may come back. Why is IT so hard to accept? I feel for you because I feel for me...
three years ago memorial day weekend i was diagnosed with non hodgkins lymphoma if i remember the term right.lots of stomach pain and weight loss.a ten day hospital stay and chemotherapy cured me.my thought throughout was my kids and grandkids need me.the chemo was a son of a gun.hair loss,nausea,loss of appetite and the worst loss of a sex drive.i only had to go once every 3 weeks for 6 times.after about 2 weeks i would be feeling better so i had about a week of feeling pretty good.then it was back to the 4 hour chemo session.i don't remember fearing death but like i said i live to help others so that was my goal in surviving.i'll just live till i die and do the best i can do.i'm feeling great these days and i don't really worry about it.
