I apologize for writing out my life story but I think most of it is relevant. In any case, I really appreciate any and all comments. In short, Im a social basket case. I really dont know where to start. In elemantary school I was always ignored. I spent most of my time alone in some secluded part of the playground and very few people talked to me. The sad thing is the most attention I received in those years was when I was being bullied and getting beaten up. When the time came for me to go to high school, my parents decided it would be best if I went to an all boys school so that I can focus better on my studies. Bad Idea. But I was twelve/thirteen and hadnt hit puberty yet, so I didnt have any complaints. During my high school years, I became more social. I developed quite a few friendships but I knew that an important part of my childhood was missing(girls). I dont think I spoke to any girls my age throughout nearly all my high school years. I really lost all motivation to study or do anything practical. I became increasingly frustrated and edgy. I felt very depressed all the time and under alot of stress. I never really told anyone this before but when I was 15/16, I contemplated suicide. To make matters worse, my dad instilled in me the idea that I should study math. I remember coming home every day, listening to his advice... almost like a mantra. Like always, I followed his advice. When it comes to the opposite sex, Im a complete basket case. Right now Im in my first year and I think I can count the number of girls Ive spoken to this year on one hand. Heck, I dont think Ive spoken to any in the past MONTH. Sometimes I spend days without talking to anyone. Usually I stick around a little bit after class with the hope that Ill see someone I know or meet someone new. When I do get a chance to talk to someone, I have a verbal diahrea and turn into a chatterbox. Looking back on my early life, I realize that there is a great deal I missed out on. I dont think I had a proper childhood but then again many people didnt. For the most part I kept it all bottled inside and put on a cheerful face. I think I grew up completely alone. When people tell me that these were the best years of my life, it makes me wonder how bad the rest of my life will be. I know I should stop feeling sorry for myself, many people have it much worse than I do. Ive never told anyone this before. I guess I really needed to vent some of my frustrations.
I had a similar situation man. Just remember that you have a long life and plenty of opportunities to experience new things and learn to be more outgoing.
This is a response to dunno123....When I was 7 years old my parents divorced and my brother who is 4 years old than me went to live with my father and I went with my mother. She bought me a cat who became the most important thing in my life. He was and always will be the best friend I ever had. When I was 15 he became ill and I had to have him put down. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. At this time I was one year into a two year relationship with my very first girlfriend. None of the few friends I had had girlfriends and I felt very proud. I broke up with her when I was 16 and within 3 weeks I had another girl I aslo dated for two years. Right before I dropped out of high school my friends all got into drugs and I wasn't doing any at the time, my time was focused on my girl (the one who i broke up with when I was 18) so all my friends left me behind. I will be turning 21 this coming September, I have not dated or slept with one girl since that last one when I was 18. A year ago I rescued a small cat who is now my best and only friend. All this to say I am very happy with my life mostly because I know I have the rest of it to find someone who loves me. Peace and Love
you think when people say best life is childhood life meaning always having fun? it's not like that at all. ppeole say that because once you grow up, you have so much responsibilities, especially if you want nice shit. than here comes the bills!!! wannna hava family? more$, you want your childrens to goto school in walmart clothes and get laughed at? no, work harder for more money. adult life sux. having someone to hang out with is cool but having not to worry about bills are better, especially in these tough times. take it easy and maybe try one of those dating sites?
