just thinking.. thoughts... and stuff...

I thought I'd just put this thread under this section. I could also put it under psychedelics, though.

so I'm just kind of getting my mind all confused an twisted and wrapped around things.thoughts. I'm just thinking about the human race, and how different it is to anything ever seen. now this sounds so cliche, but, well, it sounds cliche. I can't use words to say why it isnt (simply because I'm not good with words)

great, now I'm loosing my track of thought.

ok, so. It seems that we've created such a world, whether that is developed or not. mostly developed, though. and everyone is forced into this world. like, it seems that because I am a human being, I have to do this and that. it seems that there is no way to go back our ancestral ways. We keep progressing, and keep making more, buto where are we getting to? we've completely transformed this tiny piece of rock in the vast area of space, but once we're gone, our history will be erased in 25,000 years, and nothing gives a shit. why is it that since we're so intelligent, and since I am born as a human being, that I have to go to school, or do anything that humans do intstead of other animals?

I'be been to yellowstone, and I stared off, and it's like going back time. it shows you that it is all insignificant. why does anything that human race do, matter? I felt so at peace when I was at that moment. and tonight I walk out of a movie theater, I ate mozzerella sicks from a plastic bowl, and I walk onto the parking lot, in my shoes, my clothes, as my rubber foot touches that ground of concrete and paint that stains the earth, I look up at the sky, and it is night, but all I see is a purple-brown haze. where are the stars and the moon? Who stole them? Just looking at that made me want to start to cry.

sorry if none of this makes sense. but don't give me comments saying that I should just shut the fuck up and read a book. you're not helping. just judging by what I said, does anyone have opinions that have to do with that general realm of things? Don't think I'm just some 15 year old that has found some thought that makes me sound "deep". I'm not trying to sound "deep"

 

I feel for you man. That's the thing about life, we can either keep on evolving, or find peace at where we're at.

Unfortunately (or fortunately) we have evolved down a specific path. In a neurotic fashion to control, we've created the modern world. To function in society we now need to have millions of people just to keep the machine running. Pump the water out the subways, give electricity, transport stuff. This type of evolution gives unlimited potential, yet is fragile without proper insight/cultural indoctrination.

Yet, why can't we live in a world where the buffalo roam? Where the fish flow freely and there are flocks of birds over 50 miles long?

That's why I love fishing. When you're out there, there's no such thing as bills, work, politics, religion. There is only you trying to get your food, no strings attached (except the line... but..).

I know the feeling man, I really do. It touches your soul on the deepest most profound level.

 

exactl. I'd like to go more into depth about what I truly mean, but it was just an emotion and feelng that just hit me. I was just kind of walking though the parking lot in a trance. I just want to know what this means, because I couldn't find more to it, where to go with it. And then I was thinking on more of a cosmic scale. Not like the "we're so small, we're only specks in this universe" kind of thing. Its just that we're here, but theres nowhere to go. we think that there are so many opportunities, but we're only vulnerable bags of water. God, I'm getting really depressed. :/

It really did touch me, and I'm glad you get what I mean.

 

I can't type very well since I had that thought last night. I keep mixing up letters and spaces, and I have to keep on correcting myself. I keep having no reccolection or making any errors.

 

It's hard to really put into words, it's like this "feeling" in the pit of your being that just grabs your consciousness. Like it's the most important thing in your life, yet there's only silence.

You try to talk about it, and you type out a couple jumbled sentences, even a couple paragraphs, but it won't due. People will stab at ur words, yet they dont' get the whole story. It'll take a lifetime to try to explain and philosophize about that feeling, and even then maybe you can't fully explain it.

Maybe I'm way off base, lol. To me, it's like when you're on a beach, at night, all alone. Breeze blowing, moonlight, waves washing over your toes. And for just a little bit your mind siops racing from task to task, about what's next on your infinite "To-Do" list.

You're just there. Breathing, seeing. "What to do now?"

Loco? Possible

 

dead on.

 

So agreed. I WANT TO LIVE NAKED IN THE FOREST, IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?!

 

apparently you can do that if you go back to civilization every once in a while to get a licesne to be able to do that. for a year.

 

Are you shatting me, or you really can?

 

You can do anything you want. You can easily live naked in a forest somewhere, there is plenty of undeveloped land out there. Climb a mountain and go live at the top, settle in some woods somewhere, build a shack in a swamp, nature is not dead, it is in fact everywhere and is here to stay.
You can live in these situations, but do you really want to give up everything you would have to in order to be like that? Most people are more attached to society than they even comprehend, and I don't mean technologically or financially. We have society because we are a social species. We want to be around ourselves. And things grow, and here we are now.

 

That was a joke.
But I bet the government would come out and hunt you down and throw you in jail for public nudity. for 17 years.