Friday night i picked up some shrooms from a friend. He didnt have a scale but my better judgement would say it was about 2 8ths possibly more. Being the idiot i am i figured i would take them all to experience what the farthest reaches of the mind could grasp. The first part of the trip consisted of red moving lasers, objects turning into different worlds, and a lot calidoscopes changing positions in my mind, all of which cooperated brilliantly with the alien tribal music playing in my brain. As i started to chill down i figured my trip would end but it went to new levels. I layed down and started to go in and out of sleep while i was being catapulted into a terrible journey with god(or some spirit). He told me that my reason on earth was to feel the worst pains of man so others would not have to. He then showed me the most beautiful thing on the earth (which i cannot explain) and said it would never apply to me for the same reason. The journey lasted about an hour as he brought me through different emotional levels of pain. The whole time he wept as he dragged me through hell. Afterwards i went to sleep with different visions of being an archangel cast from heaven, or a prehistoric creature being kicked out of my environment and wrapped in red vines being pulled underground. The last thing i experienced was the spirit explaining how much life does not matter. The things we do are for the purpose of worth, which is only the value we place on it. Still crying, god effectively killed me and that is how the trip ended. Since then i have been more depressed then any man should experience. I want to cry but cannot because the worst pain of all god bestowed apon me was the inablilty cope with the sadness that inficts me. Normal emotions no longer apply. It is hard to explain the feeling of death while still alive, or the urge to die without being able to kill ones self. I will never be the same
Quote: "I will never be the same" But you will be better - even if you don't now begin working to help other people in pain. But it would be a good idea.
I know exactly how you feel, just as I thought it was wearing off and I was preparing to enter the real world again it struck hard. I guess the best thing you can do is just realize that you won't be completely back to normal until the next day and let your mind take you wherever it pleases.
frizzles- dont ever say you wont ever be the same again. DONT take shrooms too seriously, it sounds like you didnt have a fun trip at all. just play the whole experience off as some stupid mushroom trip. chill out with some friends, get drunk and forget about it.
Deadhead- i did and it made the issue go away. 17 shots can clear up most shit, until the hangover wears off. ill just lay low for the next couple weeks and try to build my ego from its ashes
let me give a little bit of my insight. i've only taken shrooms once, and my trip was pretty shitty. long story short my friend jokingly called me stupid and i took what he said too seriously. during the trip i was depressed thinking he and all my other friends who weren't even there hated me. the next morning i was laughing at myself. although i believe mushrooms can be used for personal insight, don't take them too seriously. all and all it's just a drug, and you're stronger than it. don't let it fuck you over like that.
haha prone, whats the deal?? this dude clearly didnt like the trip he got when he ate 7 grams....y would you say somethin like that
Pr0ne's right here. I had the most hellish experience of my life on a lil over 7 g.s of shrooms 2 years ago (extremely similar to your bad trip. Including the after emotions). You have to go back if you want to further your understanding of yourself, and the world around you. No matter how bad the experience is, you can always learn something from it. You just have to accept the things you come to realize.
alright i got what u guys are saying. usually the trip is defined by how were feeling before we go into it, which in this case he mite be a little intimidated by a 1/4 oz of mushies. but hey, if frizz is up for it, i guess itd be ok
I believe my advice is what you should go with, but I have tripped well over 100 times and I have never had a negative experience but it all applies to the same principle so I think I know what Im talking about.
A similar experience happened when i took about 2.5-3g last summer, in combination with a large amount of lemon juice. I didnt see god or experience many visuals, but i spent most of my trip thinking i had no purpose/was useless/was braindead/etc. during the following months, these negative feelings of worthlessness/lack of meaning in life would emerge in my thoughts every few days or weeks (nothing major, just a sombre thought that i couldnt come up with an "argumnet" against), and especially during several later experiences with LSA (morning glory seeds). however, about a month and a half ago, i received and comsumed a dose of 2C-T-2 from a recent phenethylamine order, and during the experience contemplated the issue again. however, this time it was a different perspective, and i came to the conclusion of "you dont need a purpose in oder to be happy". while not a particularily relovutionary idea, it seemed to reverse and help rmove the previous feeling of being existentially meaningless. i dont know if what i said will help, but maybe sharing my experience will assist you in your "rehabilitation"
My last one was like that. It was wonderful. You gotta work on yourself after a trip like this. Thats what psychedelics are for.
Fizzle, I hope you read. Take it all in. Gives my words a chance. Bad trips can set you back a hundred miles, or be a catalyst that launches you forward a 1000. I'm just gonna start by saying, I really feel bad for the people who consume themselves believing there is some sort of purpose in life to search for, some sort of meaning we need to find that makes everything we do feel worth while. "Something" to strive for and attain, while feeling incomplete and shitty in the mean time... some sort of meaning or purpose that guarantees some sort of beautiful-and-happily ever after mindset. Screw all of it. Ultimately fizzle, I'd say it's all in your head. Accept it. Your shroom trip showed you first hand the vanity and nothingness that is everything. The impermanence of all things. The good, the bad, the neutral, it all passes. We're all going to die one day, and we're never really going to understand where the hell we are and why we are here. There may not even be a reason, or a meaning. Why even think we need one? Everybody lives in the midst of this, and everybody battles with these kind of idea's and feelings some point in their lives. Some get past it, some don't. Some people are ignorant, some aren't, some of the ignorant are happy, some unhappy, some of those blessed with knowledge are happy, and some aren't. We strive to understand what everything is for, but we always end up on the curb realizing that we can't. Once your at that point you can beat yourself up about it, or you can take a sigh of relief realizing that there's nothing you need to worry about, nothing you need to know, nothing you need to do. Just live, breathe, go with the flow, enjoy yourself, and do whatcha need to do to get through the day. Live a day at a time. You can be happy just because it's your choice to be. Happiness doesn't need a reason, look at children before their minds are beaten in and down by unhappy adults. Before they are taught to chase things and feel incomplete in the mean time. What did they really care about until they were taught to think there was something they need, or need to be? Self-image? They could care less. They're enjoying themselves. They love and respect everything. Look at how loving a child is, naturally. Look at how true human nature really is. The good and the bad, accept all of it. Be aware that the love is still in all of us no matter where we think we are at. Human suffering is out there, and it spreads like a wild fire. But you can work around it. You can't cure every one else, but you can start with yourself. You can drop the negativity, suffering and doubt, because you it's your choice to. Knowledge is flawed anyway by the sole fact that it too is man-made and subjective at best. Everything we know is subjective and far from absolute on any large universal scale. Don't beat yourself down with flawed assumptions on reality, we can't ever really know it anyway. I'd say, screw the idea's of a spirit or a God. Screw the God or spirit that made you believe you were equal to a piece of shit decaying away on the ground. What kind of God or spirit is that? Certainly wouldn't be the unconditional loving God everybody says is out there, so something must be wrong. Hey, maybe we all are equal to the shit we see lying on the ground, and maybe we all aren't. Who cares? You can waste yourself away trying to figure out pointless things, trying to discover some sort of superficial meaning or purpose, or you can just live life peacefully and carelessly like everything else in existence that isn't human. No matter the purpose or meaning, what good is it after death? What was it all for then? You can live your life thinking all your better moments are ancient history and never to return, but what is the point of living like that in the end? In a world where no guarantees are made, where nothing is truly certain, good or bad. Realize this, realize that you have a choice. Nobody was born with a manual in their hand. We're all empty handed in the start and we will be in the end. Anyway. I hope that helps man. I was in your same pair of shoes some time ago, and I got back up on my feet again. You can too. Don't reinforce a bullshit attitude with idea's like "I'll never be the same." Honestly man, find your inner strength. Find your right to happiness. Find the self-love you were born with.
wow shooowh that was deep. I was listening to Strangefolk's "Entitled" when reading it and i felt like i was trippin. that was awsome, i took it all in. thanks
