that i may be ready to experience acid, but i think i need some help clearing it up. i've been doing a lot of thinking about it and meditating on it, because it really is a big deal for me. i've decided that my whole life i've been a committed to a life of conformity and no excitement. in my experiences through life, i've found that there is nothing i really believe in. i've had some good experiences, and i've had some bad experiences, but there are some things that i cannot wrap my head around and feel as if i'm ready to use acid as a catalyst to reach into my own mind, and help find who i truly am. also, having been raised a catholic and attended 7 years of CCD, i find it harder and harder to follow and believe in these christian ideals. my mind is confused with a number of mixed ideas as to where my place is in religion and i believe that acid may be a way for me to help me express myself through this. the only problem is that i have a dark, suicidal side to myself in times of crisis, and i believe that a trip gone wrong for me would be a time of crisis, as i have a hard time controlling my thoughts as it is. can i have some experiences insight as to my position in the face of indecisiveness?
i recommend you deal with these problems before dropping lsd. if you do drop, be it alone. or, with someone you can trust will be alright with handling you if you possibly cry, become scared, or overly paranoid... to help calm you. know yourself know when the time is right they key is knowing. not thinking, knowing
You won't die and if you haven't killed yourself yet you won't on an acid trip. But, you will be shown some parts of yourself that you can change for the better. If you let it. If you cry laugh sing moan and feel all emotions at once it can be very spiritually cleansing. Besides..you get to spend several hours right up there with God. Talk to him while you're tripping. He talks back!
if you think your ready to drop, your ready. Hopefully acid will help you to understand you need to believe in yourself. as for suicide, acid will probably teach you that ending the wonderful life you are given is wrong. have fun
I heartily recommend dropping some acid. The only thing I would warn you about is relying to heavily on the psychedelic experience to throw the answers your looking for right into your face. Expect to put in some work on your own, and maybe to even be sober for some if it
it's great that you have been meditating on this, i read about it, talked with friends about their personal experiences, and read about lucy for a year before i tripped for my first time. as everyone here has alreaday said, knowing that you are ready is most important. lucy is poweful, you must respect her. i remeber the first time i tripped...i was fully prepared, but the minute the hits were under my tounge my heart started pounding, i had a lot of friends around me and one talked me through the stages i would go through, whether its true or not he helped calm me down. anxiousness at the beginning of a trip is normal, and you need to be prepared for that. as long as you can realize that the anxiety is NOT foreshadowing a time of crisis, but rather something beautiful then i say fasten your seat belt and go for the ride. as mr. writer said, give yourself to her, she will work with you. and not to scare you, but sometimes trips can be a bit dark...welcome it, dont fear it. dont let negativity take over the trip, but learn from whatever is thrown your way. when you sincerely feel you are ready, it is time. i do suggest being with people you trust your first time, preferaby someone who is experienced
i can attest from personal experience that doing drugs while mentally unstable can lead to some pretty dangerous thoughts. being your first time, i suggest having a babysitter (a sober or just high person) hang out with you and make sure you don't do anything stupid.
iam not sure about giving oneself fully to it....however i do know that taken acid even once can change lives for the better As long as the person is in the right state of mind like the dude above me said, i can also say that acid under wrong mental conditions can fuck a person up!!!!! haha....It worked for me but also fucked me a little too hard, left me battered for quite sometime haha
in my opinion your difficulties with lsd are directly proportional to your not being sure about giving yourself fully to it
Throw that christian shit out the window.... Just kidding, I think acid is exactly what you need. Dose high!
not super high, but you want to get at least waist deep, your first time, getting only your toes wet won't allow you to understand the potential power behind acid
Honestly i think I was in your exact position a few years ago, kinda falling away from the christianity ideals, confused on what to believe, even a dose of suicidal depression for the longest time. Though the acid just seemed to sweep it all away. After going through the craziest ride of my life ( the trip ) I was just so grateful after wards to be alive. Don't get me wrong, Of course on this initial trip I definitely had some rough ends to work through, that included some extreme feelings of fear and panic, but they passed. And when they did, I was sort of left with this strong inner feeling of connection, that just seem to consist of deep, pure, peaceful feelings that I couldn't really explain, though they never seemed to leave after the trip. Not to mention I don't really hold any ideals anymore. The judgmental, fearful and negative side that used to consume me just seemed to disappear. I get along with people better, feel more compassion for others, idk. Psychedelics worked wonders for me. This is just my personal long story short though, everybody's different. Proceed with caution. If I could give any advice for your trip if and when you do trip, I'd advise being with somebody you can really open up to and trust, going with the flow no matter what you feel good or bad, and don't get lost in a spiral of thoughts, just be present and feel the experience for what it is. Maybe try and get your mind off things with a good dose of the out doors. Good L
Go for it IMO I did one hit my first time, nothing terribly profound happened, but I had a great time giggling for 8 hours straight with my friends in the woods camping. Do it with people you're COMPLETELY comfortable with, and I'd do it with atleast one other person your first time. If you can do it in the woods while camping or just on a day hike I'd highly recommend it, even if it means waiting longer to do it. Be honest with yourself and you'll have nothing to fear, ever.
