Jotting down my experiences

I doubt anyone will read this as it is very long.

I bought a gram of the yellow from Salvia Zone. For those unfamiliar with Salvia Zone's color coded system it goes

Green - Personal Discovery
Yellow - Deep Personal Discovery
Red - Visual Quest
Purple - "Beyond"
Blue - "Infinity"

Its probably important to note that after years of occasional marijuana use I started to have weird paranoid frightening thoughts, it was this reoccurring terrifying "spiritual" experience, and I discontinued use. I was always FASCINATED by psychedelics(probably the most interesting subject in the world to me), but was scared to try before and was terrified of even the thought after what simple marijuana did to me.

My brother and my girlfriend(sort of)sat on the couch and rolled a mini "salvia joint". Needless to say for anyone who has tried salvia this was very difficult and unsuccessful. My brother tried and felt nothing. My girlfriend and I went downstairs to try on our own, as my brother lost interest.

We created a makeshift bowl and packed it with a probably 50mgs of Salvia (1/2 the recommended dose). I smoked it and the paranoid weed feelings set in. I acted a bit strange, and scared her. If I remember correctly she tried and felt nothing(I'm a bit hazy on this point because over the next 2 days I tried several times successfully, and she tried unsuccessfully until her last atempt). We decided not to do anymore for now.

Later that night, alone in my living room I had my first trip. I would have selected a better setting, and not watched TV but I didn't expect it to work because of earlier and how I've read of people who experienced nothing on x60 extract.

First trip: After exhaling I felt very drunk/high and out of it the entire trip. The Daily show with John Stewart was on and a moon and star from the Islamic faith was on the screen. I have always had very negative feelings toward Islam, and seen it as a violent religion. I'm not sure if that is justified, but that is how I've felt after 9/11 and seeing horribly violent Islamic extremists videos online. I vaguely remember feeling positive feelings towards this image as it warped in my mind, in contrast with how I usually feel about it. I don't remember exactly what went on, as this was the trip I brought back the least memories from.

5 minutes after the first trip I wanted to try again, although I didn't know what exactly I knew something crazy had just happened.

Second trip: Letting out the smoke I waited perhaps 10 seconds and was struck by my most powerful trip. It was probably my second or third most profound experience, it was the highest dose I've used thus far, and the most enjoyable in a hedonistic sense. An outback steakhouse commercial was on with very intense/beautiful images. Their aesthetic beauty completely engulfed me, and I was feeling intense euphoria. Suddenly it showed a steak being grilled, and as I sat reclining in the chair with my feet pointed toward the television I felt a strong gravitational pull in that direction. It felt like my feet were being stretched into the commercial, like in a cartoon when a character is being sucked into a portal or black hole. There was no fear, just a giddy "cool!" feeling. The heat from the flame on the TV began crawling up my legs and thighs, it was a pleasant warm "by the fireplace" feeling, not an "ahhh fire" feeling.

The next commercial was a "volcano taco" ad from taco bell. As I'm writing this I can't help but feel a little silly realizing that one the most important experiences of my life happened inside of TV ads. I never pay attention to ads sober but apparently this was about some couple's wedding and they eat these volcano taco's which make their face bright red.

This very strange visual started at this point as I watched the TV, imagine cutting an orange in half and looking at the individual slices. Now imagine that one slice folded forward, and the one next to it folded back to reveal alternate dimensions "behind" it.

The characters in the ad began speaking to me, I don't remember what they said at all but I feel as though it was something so profound that there are no words on this side for it, and that the knowledge of it cannot be brought back. It reminds me of that twilight zone episode where an actor's scene ends and hes confused because his wife and kids from the movie were not real. It was like that, in that although I'm sure all the actors in the ad are real people I could look up, the characters they played were also real. Maybe I was looking into a world of imagination...I don't know. I remember the feeling of their presence. They were the most charismatic likable knowledgeable "people" I've ever encountered BY FAR.

By now I was coming down, but was very intrigued(understatement, years of reading about psychedelics had prepared me well, but it exceeded my expectations...which I expected...if that makes any sense haha). I ran into my brother's room to talk to him about it for 15 minutes or so and I remember telling him "there are doors, infinite doors everywhere, and this stuff lets you go through those doors".

Third Trip: I came back out into the living room and lit up another bowl while watching "night at the museum". This was 95% visual, as the TV again was the focus. The television is a 2 dimensional screen projecting the illusion of a 3 dimensional world. As I looked into the TV it seemed as there was real depth, as if I could have jumped inside and interacted with Ben Stiller . 2 dimensions became 3 on the TV, and my 3 dimensional world became 4 dimensional. Or at least that is how it felt at the time, because I can visualize what I saw now, sober, and it seems like a normal 3D living room in my memory. I was coming down and got up to walk around and I laughed at the silly playfulness of these experiences. I marveled at simple 3D possibilities like opening and closing my pantry door.

Forth trip: I only remember two things. One, that as I lay on the couch with my knees bent, I realized my legs took up about 25% of my view. Somehow this was the most fascinating thing ever, but I fail to see how now. Two, everything in my sight "stacked" into a 2D plane. There was no depth, it was if everything in my sight was on a flat painting.

Next day

Fifth trip: I watched MGMT's video of "Time to Pretend". I had that awful marijuana experience reoccur except from a Salvia perspective with trippy visuals. Except it wasn't scary throughout, I was scared when the giant crab mouths start to grow large, and then when the giant crab comes towards you. Luckily in the video they shoot it with an arrow and it explodes into a million dolphins, as this happened I felt instant relief. I was also scared when he sang about "I'll miss my mom, I'll miss my home miss my sister miss dog" etc. Somehow I thought this meant I was going to die, and I would miss my mom my sister my dog etc. I forget a lot from this experience, but although it was slightly difficult it wasn't that bad. I'm glad I had it.

Sixth trip: I watched MGMT's video "Electric feel". As the Salvia took hold I became frightened as there are some scary looking people dancing in that video, haha. I pressed backwards on my browser, but had the sense that I should watch it, it would be okay. I bravely (and it was brave, I was very scared!) started it up again, and had the most profound trip so far. It sang about "A woman who will shock you like you won't believe". I felt as though this woman was giving me this trip (Lady Salvia?), and I also felt deeply connected to this drug that has a rich culture and long history. The people in the video were so fun, and gave off pleasant vibes. My way of thinking kind of folded on itself, and I saw the world in a different way. I saw this world as kind of the kiddie pool of the universe where souls are just starting out(I wasn't 100% sure that this was the beginning, but I had that sense, I tried to ask but I received no answer). This is where we learn to love, and once we progress we move forward into other stages of existence. The next stages looked beautiful and are incomprehensible to me now, but I felt as though at the time I had a vague grasp of the next "levels".


Seventh Trip: I watch the video to the "All you need in love" cover from the movie across the universe. I took from this experience that...you guessed it...all you need is love. The cops started to morph into something evil, as they did so the women sang "all you need is love", and the demons shrunk in the presence of this beauty and love.

I have this fear that the god might this fire and brimstone so many people preach about, and what I took from this is that there is a god and so long as you do the right thing and always act in love you have nothing fear. You can literally do anything with love.

Eighth trip: I listened to "Ever the Same" by Rob Thomas. The lyrics are really beautiful, and you can tell he wrote them about someone he truly loves. As I listened to this I felt as though God had written this song for me, and the lyric "I can carry all of your weight, you're no burden I assure" had strong Christian connotations in relation to Jesus Christ "carrying the burden of our sins with the cross". I desperately pleaded in my mind with God to tell me which religion was the correct one, as this is something that I have always struggled with...but I received no answer.

It has been a very positive experience thus far, I really wanted to write down this stuff and share it. I'll definitely continue experimenting with this sacred plant.

 

Those sound like great experiences. I had my doubts about salvia the first time i tried too. I experienced a lot of the sensations you talk about during your trips. The feeling of being pulled, and hearing voices talk to you... My first experience was horrifying; but fun non-the-less. Great post!