How do you know if you are on the verge of a mental break down?

I swear, I only have two more weeks at my job, but these people that call into my job are so fucking ignorant... I really can't take it. I feel like I'm going to blow up... throw something and quite my job running out screaming "fuck you guys".

I'm moving and leaving my family behind, and they are all pissed off at me... they are always bitching when I call, then wondering why I rearely call or come to visit....

My 'love life' is non exsistant.

My 'sex life' is questionable.

I'm more depressed the the rest of the world really knows, but I hide it to pretent I'm stronger then what I am, always have.

I feel like I don't give my kids enough time and oppertunites.... especially with my job demanding I work fucking overtime.

Money is limited.

I feel like I want to give up... most of the time.

I'm too depressed to really eat, so I have no energy and feel like crap, when when I eat, I feel worse then just being hungry.

I feel like I'm losing control of everything and I have no where to run to or anyone who will really be able to fully understand.

 

how do you know?
well,
you feel that you did not have a breakdown yet,
but you feel awfully close to having it...
((


really really bad feeling.............

so,
if you can still reason, and sum up all the things that are going wrong in your life... you are still not breaking down!
which is good!
a good, happy thought - you are still managing it!!!

have you tried counseling? a trained professional should be able to understand what are you going through... and it seems like its a lot...
please, give it a go...
if it is money that is stopping you, try some phone help-line!
they helped me in the past... when i thought im cracking up... and was cracking up... good thing ab it is, you can call them any time of day! even like 3am...

i wish you all the best!
take care!!

or just write down here everything that you feel is a problem... someone will be able to understand at least bits and pieces of it, right?

here,
im sending you my positive vibes... ))

chin up
good luck
take care

 

Oh, no, Angel ~ you're just SUPER stressed, right now. If you told this to your doctor, s/he would certainly prescribe an anti-anxiety drug, like Ativan or Xanax.

Or you could "buy them off the street," but be careful with dosage ~ you'll want to be functional, just with the edge off.

Also, be super careful with feeling that way about eating ~ you NEED to eat, even if you don't feel like it, because of your kids. You aren't in control if your body is spinning OUT of control, due to lack of nutritious fuel.

Cook fast stuff, from scratch (a crockpot is awesome for a working mom), and keep lots of fruit on hand, for all of y'all.

i sure hope this helps! :grouphug:

 

Thank you guys so much for the advice.

I appreciate it.

I'm awful about talking on the phone, or in person about my problems, writing/typing helps me release a lot. Once I get a break from things I will feel a lot better... when i got to thinking about the overtime I will be paid I felt a little better about having to work all these days in a row...

I'm sure they would, I used to have VERY bad anxiety problems, that I have overcome without prescribed meds, they only mad it worse (Paxil CR)

Self medication works much better for me, haha.

The eating thing, if I smoke, then I can eat, and I'm fine... otherwise I lose my appetite after a couple bites and damn near vomit trying to eat more.

 

What is UP with that?!?

For a couple of years now, i've felt the same way!

i practically LIVE on Roasted Garlic Triscuits and cheese.

Speaking of tokin'... :sifone:

You sound like a strong woman, Angel,

and if you ever need a sympathetic ear, rest assured that i will be MORE than happy to provide it!

 

Awww, thank you so much.

 

Cheer up! You're really cute, and you look cool in those shades.

Maybe try developing the artistic side of you, if you haven't already? Drawing, writing, maybe even playing a musical instrument? You're probably really creative and you just need an outlet for it all. Then maybe you'll feel more level and better able to tackle the other parts of your life.