awesome place to be and glad i found it

i got a long story i can introduce myself with. when i get into stuff i REALLY get into it.

man i never felt so close to a group of people in my life. im 24 as of june 5. it wasnt until this past month that i even realized how much of a hippie i am.

it started off with me just smoking weed. like ive done that off and on since i was 12 but never for this long of a period of time and im glad i have kept up with it. ive learned so much more about myself over this period of time of me smoking then i ever have not smoking. i suffer greatly from depression and no prescription medications have ever helped. lately i learned about myself that i smoke weed because it helps me open my mind which my depression restricts. so really i know where i would be without weed because i been there so many times before and now i have no intention on ever stopping again. i stopped before for the reasons i assume most ppl would stop doing it...its illegal, difficult to find where i live and i dont work and cant afford to grow. i dont work for many reasons of which im sure most of you allready understand. besides for the reasons that most of you allready understand i also dont work because of my depression. which wouldnt be an issue either if i wasnt paranoid about getting high at work. but the good news is i feel i am learning so much about myself these days that in a few years i feel my depression will be cured with weed and from there i guess i will see what happens for me in order to make a living.

right now i live with my fiance and 2 kids. it is difficult to do being that i dont work. its hard and stressful for the both of us with 2 kids and she does work but for her dad. so i am very lucky to have her in my life and have her put up with me sometimes but we love eachother very much and thats what keeps us together including hope that someday i can get past my issues with depression and society and work my way around it.

so as you can see you can understand why i call myself a natural born hippie. i have always disagreed with the established ways of a normal society and have always my entire life lived around it as well as i possibly feel i can.

i read on the wikipedia recently that hippies started off as germans that moved to california. i just found that out recently and you can correct that if im wrong. i find it strange that besides for just being a white guy im german and have always wanted to live in california. my last name is german but other then that i know nothing about germans...other then that they were the beginning of hippies. ofcourse there was no "beginning" but i think you guys get my point.

i enjoy camping (which i did recently for my b/day), traveling(the farther the better and on ground travel only), music, computers, cars, weed and many other things. the crazy thing about it is i use to enjoy very few things (due to my depression) until i started smokin weed all the time and now i just find more and more things about myself, life and new interests all the time. i know its not that crazy to most of you but all this stuff is pretty new to me over the past 2 yrs or so.

well i skipped alot about myself here but i think i got the basics across. oh and another strange thing recently is i found this 86 chevy g20 just last week that fits me so well that im goin to look at it later today and will probably get it. the owner isnt asking much for it and my fiance likes it also and i know alot about vehicles especially GM vehicles and it should run great...305 with the 350 turbo, only 2 owners, only 120000 miles on it...for those of you who know vehicles thats an unbeatable combination. i use to own an 84 camaro z28 with a 305 and a 700r-4 and i miss that car everyday. it ran great but i needed the money at the time and got rid of it.

newayz i joined this forum hoping to learn alot from the ppl here and therefore more about myself and the life i live.

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EDIT: IM FROM PA. IT SUCKS.

 

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