sometimes i really think i'm gonna die soon. i'm not saying this to be all dramatic or get sympathy. i honestly do not feel well.. a lot. the past few nights my heart has been beating all funny. i can feel it in there struggling. it's not something new. it has always had this 'problem' but it just seems to be getting worse lately. the migraines are a lot worse as of lately too. i'm tempted to write on paper a sort of will or at least a letter to my kids and the adults that will have to deal with my body once i do die. i'm scared to go to a doctor for several reason. mainly because i feel like nothing gets accomplished any time i do go to a doctor. they just bill me and tell me to take some pills. health care in the USA sucks. what if i do have a serious problem and need an operation? i'm even more scared of that! i'm kind of at a lost as what i should do.
It's never a bad idea to have a written will, make sure you have a witness to sign off on it, too. But maybe you should go to the doctor? Have they looked into chronic fatigue syndrome?
no one else has heart problems .. that i know of. i guess i had a heart murmur as a baby. yeah.. i still think it might be CFS or FM... i need to go to the next town over and get my poor person insurance switched to this county. i might be able to do that tomorrow. i feel so sick right now.. i kinda wanna go home.. but i kinda wanna stay here so i can be around my kids when they get back.
what i'm telling you is that there is no point dwelling on this fact. we all have issues you just seem to be focused on some "heart problem." i have health issues too, but i don't whine about them and i definitely dont cause myself undue stress. stress will kill you. and if stress doesn't kill you then you might be hit by a bus while walking down the street bopping to the beat of that new Kanye Song on your ipod. do you have bad karma?
exactly... trying to be funny or witty in this thread when ya don't really know me.. is just going to make me ignore your post. maybe i shouldn't have put it in RT.. hey, mod feel free to move this thread to the health section. i try to be a kind loving person to everyone. i try to take the best care of myself as i possibly can, yet i am still getting sick. i think i may go home and try to sleep. i keep crying for no reason. i really don't want my kids to come back and see me all upset.
you probably have nothing to worry about, but you'll worry anyways. in that case go to the doctor and drop us a line on your status thereafter.
wow i think you should go to a doctor, even if the health care in your country is that bad. and don`t think bad things! don`t think anything bad, coz you know when you think something you can make it happen. i mean the brain does it all, so don`t brainwash youself. just think that you are fucking healthy
well.. i'm still alive. went to go see about changing my health care from that county to this county.. and of course... when i got there, they could do nothing for me. i have to contact that county to get it switched to this county... why the fuck does everything have to be so difficult? i still feel icky.. i would just for once like to not feel sick, in some way or another, for 24 hours.
Man, I really feel for you. I was sick for like a year and no one could figure it out. I'm not a doctor but, you really need to see one. These my just a few opinions 1. Migraines are often a sign of infection. 2. migraines are also caused by dehydration and treated with water so drink a lot of it. 3. many people begin to fear death at your age and when they have children. Thinking you will die WILL cause you to feel like it. 4. heart palpation is common and not necessarily dangerous but have it checked. 5. Fear of death can cause panic attacks which make your heart beat funny ....... I really think you should just go to the ER in your county. If it were something very serious you wouldn't be on here. The bottom line is I think that you may have something wrong with you and need treatment but your worry about it is making you worse. Something as simple as an untreated infection can get bad and cause you to feel really sick especially if you are scared. Please write down your symptoms so you don't forget any and go to the ER TODAY. You don't want your family to have to find you dead from something that was treatable. Most important try to talk yourself out of the worry and you will feel better even if you are sick. Let everyone know how you are! Oh with the medical.... Call the group provider and switch your provider, I think you can switch the county through them or call the medicaid hot line and they will change it over the phone. If you need other help with this let me know and I will find you the numbers. good luck sweetheart.
i've had the migraines all my life.. i pretty much know how to deal with them. just all this other 'new' stuff that is making me nuts.
Does it feel like it's trying to keep up with a normal beat but it just can't keep up? Sometimes mine does that and then I get a pain in my chest but then I just pound on my chest and it feels better. Then sometimes it feels like I have an extra beat and just thinking about it makes me wince in pain. I really don't like it. I always pay attention to my heart, especially when I'm high. It happens when I'm sleeping too. I'll just be lying there and I'll feel an extra beat or something. Or sometimes it feels like it's going just a little to slow and then it has to catch up again. It freaks me out but I just try not to worry about it.......
