is there anyone i can pm?

You could pm me, I s'pose.

 

Im here if you still want to talk to someone

 

You can PM me too. Now, or whenever you want to.

 

I'm sorry, I can't help you with that. But I'm still here if you want to talk.

 

You seem to at least have a home, and a computer. Go find someone who's in worse shape than yourself, who's got no home, no computer, none to comfort them. Give, and it shall be given to you.

 

Ive sent a PM

 

I mean what I said. It may be the best thing for you to realize that there are others who also need, perhaps more than you.

I've been there. I was so full of fear and anxiety, I was afraid of getting out of bed, of the shower, of hot, or cold water, was sobbing incessantly,,

I found great relief in getting into a group situation, where I wasn't the only one. Helping others is EXTREMELY therapeutic. We are just so myopic sometimes, can only see our own situation.

If it's a chemical imbalance, get help, take some restorative things, eat a banana, or something, but getting outside is often part of the solution.

 

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Which are most probably the things you need to talk about the most.

The distorted mind is a lens,,,distorted and colored by our chemistry. Overcome. Don't let the mind be your master. Master your mind. Take charge. Let it know who's the boss. It shouldn't rule you, making you its slave.

Whether it's here, or some other forum, or encounter, talk. Get it out. Let it out. Bring it into the light. The darkness only has power as long as it's got a hiding place.

 

The world's not ALL black. Some people CAN be trusted. Some, not all. YOU have to seek them out. In the mean time, be an example. YOU BE trust-worthy. BE that which you wish to find in others.

 

Do you mean what, or who? Or are you simply asking for a definition?

Primarily, it's an individual matter. YOU have to do the work, to clean up your act, stop depending on others to do all the work for you. Trustworthiness is a personal thing, something that comes from an instinct, a gut feeling, and experience. Mostly, don't trust anyone until they've been proven. Until that time, just keep it close to your chest. Don't be dependent. Be strong, and the time will come when someone will be revealed.

Self pity is an insidious killer. Steel yourself.

 

Well, feel free to reply, at least with a thanks. Its important to thank those who are kind to you. More important than arguing I think