i've had this weird thing going on for as long as i can remember. it's not really "frequent" but i can remember being a litle kid and feeling the same way, and it occasionally happens now (i'm 18). but the feeling itself is pretty hard to describe... the best i can do is to say that it's almost like having sensations that aren't really sensations in vague parts of my body. "feelings" will come up that aren't pain/pressure/tingling or anything obvious like that, and don't really seem to have a familiar basis in the senses. for example, i had one feeling in my head (literally, placed in the center of my brain, a place where normally i don't feel anything at all) that felt almost like a circle, but not exactly. like a "disc" that was half physical and half mental, that didn't hurt or press or anything, but it was there, the same way a finger would just "be" on a hand. in a way this also happens with my thoughts... a thought/word will occur to me at random, and i'll have a sense that i just thought something that was neither an idea or word, but i have no idea what it actually is. the thing is it's not really a "questioning" thing, like, within my "recognizing" something as happening to me, there's sometimes co-occuring lack of specificity/identification that's been extremely elusive to me, almost like a phantom feeling, or like a speck on the side of your eye that moves when you try to move your eye to look at it. very strange, and it all feels distinctly out of the ordinary which is why i'm asking... i don't remember developing these things along with my normal human experience, it's mostly accompanied by discomfort/restlessness and some other "unplaceable" responses to it. haha. what a mess, this probably won't make ANY sense to anybody. i'm posting here because, as weird as it seems to me, i can't imagine i'm the only one, and this definitely seems to have a basis in mental health (i have other mental health related bumps in my road, unidentified as of now). curious if anyone might possibly konw what i mean? if somethiong doesn't make sense- that's the point . just ask and i'll try to clarify as best i can... obviously i'm not looking for a cure or answer on here, i'm just posting out of interest too see what people might know/think about the experience.
Hmm, I have never heard of this before but to me it sounds psychological. I know my mind can create phantom senses if I believe in them enough.
Sometimes randomly places i've been to just pop into my head for no reason. like i open the fridge just to get the milk then for some reason i just think about a park near my grandparents place or something like that for no reason. the places change, it's just weird. Feels slightly similar..
Yeah, Sussie, that's happened yo me all my life. But it is just suggestion. Something in that rerige reminded you of the park. Don't bother trying to figger it out - you'll drive yourself up the wall. Just smile and think, "ah! the power of association!"
.. that's actually pretty cool =] have you ever done any drugs? (i mean this not in an offensive way)
I have this too! I thought I was the only person who had ever experienced this and I have had a real problem even describing what it is. You do a good job at it though. My "sensation" always occurs on the right side of my forehead near my temple. I won't feel it for weeks or months and then for no apparent reason it suddenly appears. Sometimes I can link it to stress or worry, but most of the time I have no idea why it is there. I find it annoying and even try to wipe it away with my hand..I know that sounds silly. I have suffered from depression all my life and I wonder if that is a contributing factor as well. I have no idea. You are not alone though.
.. sometimes i'll say something and then find it odd or weird that i had said it, wondering if it was really me who did
You are blessed, for one thing. When a memory pops into your head, like the milk or the park, it's something, somebody, maybe a part of you, that is trying to tell you something. practice this when memories like those pop up: try to think, is there somebody who misses you that may need your attention? do you need more calcium in your diet? it's really simple like that. and all that mental health psychological stuff is just brain fuzz. lint. i hate that shit. lol. anyway. hope you read the 'signs'.... amanda
interesting you mention that, i actually had this severely a while back... an unfortunate experience with a pot brownie led to (not caused but i do believe there is a relationship) about 2 years of fuzziness and dissociation with pretty much all the classic symptoms (brain fog, static vision, feeling like i was dreaming)... that has faded but things are still strange. everything i wrote in my post happened during this time but has also continued. and scarlett_tunic, lol yes i have done/still do drugs, mainly psychedelics. i find it interesting that strange feelings i remember having as a child are very much like psychedelic experiences i've had, which i'm sure isn't a coincidence. i remember being in class in 3rd grade, closing my eyes and watching geometric shapes. and this feeling i get on nitrous, of my brain splitting and alternately moving back and forth rapidly along with a weird sense of everything being red (which is pretty uncomfortable) i remember complaining of when i was younger. maybe i'm epileptic and those are signs of a seizure of some sort? i don't know.
I feel what everyone is saying like about the thoughts and just thinking I couldn't of just thought that right now it's wierd and I feel the sinsation in the top center of my brain
well, i think you're really brave for doing psychedellics even after those experiences. i've had similar things happen, but i don't tear into them anymore; i've stopped analyzing them, trying to explain them. it made it a LOT worse going to websites on it and researching it.. i was basically LIVING it. this was also during the summer, when i wasn't busy with school. anyway, after that i said i wouldn't smoke pot again [haven't].. so, i think that it is really something when a person can go back to the drug. and yes.. the feelings you're describing (brain fog, dreaming) all happened to me, with the exception of static vision. these were brief episodes, but they seemed to reoccur in similar places. like i would call another one on. i think it was due to anxiety.. but im still wondering whether it was weed that caused this anxiety. why ALL OF A SUDDEN, one day, it should happen--even though i had been smoking for 8 months.
yep, the exact same thing was happening with me- i used to spend literally hours a day just thinking about everything that was going on and probably feeding it... when i just sort of pushed it out of my mind, after a while i noticed that it lifted. it really depends though, about smoking. if it's something you feel comfortable enough to try, i'd say go for it... in terms of all those symptoms, it's really all in your head. however just like anything, i think there are some people who are better off staying away from things like marijuana and psychedelic drugs... a lot definitely depends on how things are going for you recently. i wouldn't feel comfortable recommending that you do try it, however, i CAN tell you that in my case, i stayed away from weed for a full year, terrified that if i so much as smelled it, i would spiral into insanity- this, of course, wasn't the case. but don't get me wrong... i wouldn't consider myself much "better" or "well" at this point- just very different. and i do know of some people whose symptoms do get worse from marijuana, so it's kind of hard to say.
umm.. i did try it. lol. i went out thursday night and a friend had a joint. so i ended up taking about 2 drags from it. i was totally fine.. i felt splendid, like i had gone back to something i really missed. of course, i was a little drunk before i smoked. but in terms of the anxiety or whatnot, i DO think it was all in my head. i had the same thing you had for about a month--scared to even smell it because i thought i would go insane again.
but i did experience a weird thing after i read your post.. almost another anxiety attack.. when i read that it might be affecting me. i think a lot of websites messed me up.. reading about derealization/depersonalization and things like that.
you really scared me, though. and actually talking about it makes it so much worse. i think i am going to stay off of this website for a while, so as not to keep ripping open this whole stupid weed and anxiety business.. i DONT want to talk about it anymore. i dont even think its the weed anymore; its TALKING about it. so, im gonna have to say goodbye for a while.