my life is nothing like i would like i to be. i fall asleep each night with a certain kind of emptiness in my soul. There is nothing in this world i have to live for nor is there anything to die for. i go through the days on autopilot..... doing what needs to be done. im restricted from being my true self my power crazed parents. my mom drinks large amounts on numerous occasions, i try to please her but all she can say is crash my dreams down. My dad is to afraid of her to disagree with her, so he sits and watches me slowly breakdown. I cant tell my brother he'll say being dramatic (maybe i am), no one takes my side, not even me for i to am bullied into agreeing with everything she says. my friends, well i know that im the "wierd" one in the group..... none of my friends have intelligent conversations with me... none of them stand for anything other than God (nothing wrong with that) but they fail to see other side to thier arguments. How do i get this fufillment i long for...any help would be greatly appreciated man. peace and love, lauren
Feeling empty and being empty are two totally different things I wish I had something better to say...all I can say is that my life has taught me that we all need some low times...they make the high times worth so much more. (oops...Hippie section.I feel weird posting here but Ill leave this one here )
ok...well then ....thinking you are empty and being empty are two totally different things (a little humor makes bad days seem better )
i feel like that too sometimes. i know a lot of young people that feel that way. its harder and harder to find purpose these days. i wish i could also say something to help other than just find something that is significant to you and live for doing whatever it is that you are able to do for other people and yourself.
I feel like that quite often. It's why I only hang out with a total of 3 of my friends the majority of the time. They are the only ones who get me.
^ exactly, what is the point of being around people who don't understand you? might as well be alone.
Although you didn't necessarily choose your current circumstances, they have a negative impact on you. The good news is that this CAN change and result in something positive. If you're able to do so, reading this book might just help: http://www.amazon.com/Adult-Children-Alcoholics-Syndrome-Discovery/dp/0553272799 It just might provide you some insight on your situation, and help you realize you aren't alone. I sincerely hope this helps you. . . .
