This is not specifically about LSD (though it could be) but I feel posters of this forum would be able to share the most insight. Do you folks sometimes find that your journey to the astral plain whether it be through medicine such as lsd or peyote or through meditation and dreams has caused your soul to become so detached at times that you find it hard to relate to those you once did. I am not talking about negativity or that shit, in fact I feel my light growing and my heart is so full of love for others that I could burst. I am talking of how I yearn for a companion who can share this journey with me. My girlfriend, my friends, beautiful people that they are (I see light around these people and I love my girl to death) feel like they become more distant as I learn to let go, to stop controlling everything and just let go. I do not let this get in the way of the time I spend with companions, but at the same time I feel that I have a hard time relating to their everyday concerns, dreams, and intentions. I feel like I no longer understand intention nor care for it. I am not saying I am at all above these people or better by any means, just that I feel different the more and more I walk down this road. Has anyone ever felt the way, a want for companionship on the spiritual level?
Yeah man that kinda nailed what i was feeling...No one has the same intrests as me, philosphy wise and spiritual..Doesnt bother me though, on good days it makes me feel a little bit happier,or chilled...I barely talk though, lately ive been speaking though
Of course. Sometimes I just want to retire to a Trappist monastery and remain silent as much as possible. I could care less about any dogmatic trapping, the silence would be more than golden. Others should understand the same way, more than just on these forums.
a tappistry monk huh? lmao, i would rather sit in a therapists room than be a trappistary monk, sometimes silence does the trick though in a medatative kind of way
you know, i feel like this is just a part of the spiritual journey that we need to accept. i feel the same way. i also realize that i could love someone deeply, and there would still be no real companion. ultimatly iv found that love only illuminates for us just how trully alone we really are. all i can ever know is my own conciousness. it will always feel like me inside. this dosent nessesarily need to cause suffering. but for me, it does somtimes.
If my words did glow with the gold of sunshine And my tunes were played on the harp unstrung, Would you hear my voice come thru the music, Would you hold it near as it were your own? Its a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken, Perhaps theyre better left unsung. I dont know, dont really care Let there be songs to fill the air. Ripple in still water, When there is no pebble tossed, Nor wind to blow. Reach out your hand if your cup be empty, If your cup is full may it be again, Let it be known there is a fountain, That was not made by the hands of men. There is a road, no simple highway, Between the dawn and the dark of night, And if you go no one may follow, That path is for your steps alone. Ripple in still water, When there is no pebble tossed, Nor wind to blow. But if you fall you fall alone, If you should stand then whos to guide you? If I knew the way I would take you home
It is the cross we carry on all our backs. Normal society feels cold, dark, and strange to us. I wish for all my friends to be enlightened so we can all run and play and flow with the melodys of life. It is hard explaining to others what you are feeling everyday. It is especially hard when you want to share so much with your friends, but they have no desire to here it. Thats why i sneek it in, i try to enlighten others without them even knowing. Truth is pervading from everywhere, and i just help point out the signs, hopefully they'll get it one day. There are others out there though. Just got to find them. Just keep loving!
right, but even those who have a high level of awarness cannot really know who you are. you can share yourself and expireinces with another in many different ways, but never really show them, not as you have seen. iv had plenty of moments where i felt a deep communion with another person, and iv had plenty of moments where i felt myself harmonize with all that is out there, giving me a feeling of oneness and unity. and these moments still leave me alone in an increadibly vast universe. the more i expand and take in the universe the more alone i find myself (another one of those paradoxes) seems our lives are parallel. dont get me wrong, i can be okay with this really, alone and loneliness arent synonomis, and when i do feel loneliness it is just a feeling, that passes like anyother. self realization is a process, and in that process iv been finding how much of what i thought i was, has been mere reflections of others iv known. releasing that false sence of self is strange and difficult.
haha yea i do find it really hard to relate to other people. it feels like i am just at a point to where if i bring anything up to do with my current circumstances hardly anyone else is on that level to understand what i am going through. maybe i am lucky though, because i do know a few people that are fairly 'enlightened' for lack of a better term. part of this i think has to do with our self reaffirmation. by being isolated we realise our connection to everything and our inherent connection with eachother. paradoxically we become more connected by relinquishing our connection to others.
That is what sometimes catches me the most, this impulsive feeling of letting everything inside of me out, only to realize every single person in my life right now would not care to take the time to understand it. I don't blame anyone for this for it isn't intentional nor anyone's fault, it is just a sense of loneliness in my soul. It seems through all of this you must realize that just because you are changing does not mean that you environment is, including those that you love. I will say one thing though it has caused me to see the beauty in those around me. Anyways thank you for the responses. Namaste
Ripple says it all! thanks Arch. this issue is the singular reason that I have any sort of discomfort with transcendence, the fact that I will do so alone. Of course the result of transcendence can be a realization of the illusion of ego-alone-ness and a deeper connection to our fellows, but it's really hard to not alienate others on their psychic end of it. I've kinda had this problem my whole life. As a naturally detached satellite character, it's often easier for me to intuit the motivations behind human behavior. As a result I am often not in the same psychic groove as others and have no medium to really connect with them. This isn't just something that came about because I ate acid, although that did amplify it. So instead of more detachment, acid has shown me and given me ways to connect with people in their preferred arena, such as a music genre that I hated before but after acid I fully enjoy. I was more or less a space case before taking acid, and it has helped to ground me somewhat and thin the walls between me and others. Managing to connect with people is a continuous challenge because there are so many stripes and colors of people and so many different modes of being to engage in to have that link. I don't expect to change or inspire others per se, but it's really great to find ways to connect with others when I was so distant and reticent in my life otherwise, often wondering how people can like what they like. Somehow acid has made it easier to like what people like.
