Does anyone know why I'm such an idiot?

Super promise?

 

Maybe you should meditate(not masturbate, thought that could do it too). Does me wonders.

 

I can't meditate. I can't get myself at peace hardly ever. The few times I have been at peace, I was on the A-Frame looking at this view:



Or I was here, The Fourshawn Renult:



And I am most deffinutly 2 hours from there.

 

Those aren't n00dz.

 

Have you looked up different meditation techniques?

 

:cheers2:

 

I've tried sitting in silence, laying in nature, laying in a small pool of water and curling myself up on my bed in silence.

 

I guess my advice isn't real helpful cause I'm a bit of an idiot too, but don't be so hard on yourself. Maybe you should medibate (that's meditating, then masturbating for super orgasmic results). Find your own personal heaven, then being an idiotic teenager won't bother you so much. Maybe

 

And the problem with those are...?

 

i need to take you to yoga class with me

 

Ok, but if its with you, I'll need to wear white baggy clothes.

 

My mind wont fall to silence.
It just runs and runs.

 

Make up a weird sound and repeat it over and over. That could help block out other thoughts.

 

I know I sit in my backyard and go "caaaaaaw" like a bird.

 

I think you're being over sensitive to a thing called life. We get thrown in without a road map or an instruction booklet or even floatation devices.

I'm only just starting to get to know who I am... I'm not sure if you're at that point too, but it sounds like you are. When you're not even 100% sure of who you are, it's difficult to know who other people are. And when you get hurt, it's hard to trust.

I don't know what you're "returning to" over and over again, but I assume that it's a guy? If it is... He may seem like the most important thing. It could sometimes feel like he's your reason for living. But from the way you're talking about it, I don't think he's worth your time. I think only time can bring the realisation that he is only a human being. And there's something like six billion other human beings on this planet.

Movies, songs, novels... They're all designed to play on your emotions. They show romance and love in a predictible mannar, and people are usually very stereotyped. Reality is rarely that simple.

Kisses under moonlight, being called pet names.. They may be cute and 'romantic' but is it real? True love isn't a guy falling head over heels in love with you the moment you meet him. My neighbours from NZ are in their 80's. When I watched them talk to me it was amazing because I could tell they were exactly on the same page. They would literally finish each others sentences. When I looked at the way they looked at each other.. It just made me smile because I could just feel what they had was real. They were so content and happy.

That, in my eyes, is true love.

Media is based on sex appeal. Most relationships are started by something superficial. We can't always tell who someone is by looking at them, but we can see what they look like. To tell you the truth, I don't think the world is based on sex appeal. I don't even think society is based on sex appeal. Sure, you may be able to get a little further in something if you're pretty, but you can get much furthur if you have the brains to back it up. And I don't think most guys are looking for some "sexy" blonde bimbo with huge boobs, and nothing in the brain. They want something more than sex and a trophy girlfriend.

You're not an idiot. You may have a huge soft spot for romance, but that doesn't make you an idiot. It makes you pretty normal. A lot of people want something based on fantasy.

You recognize that you keep getting hurt. You recognize that you "live in a world of fantasy". And you recognize you don't know everything about the world.

That proves you're not an idiot.

Exactly, just relax.

There are many 'facts' in the world. People do know things. Nobody knows everything, but we know things. Based on our experiences we learn the most.

 

I think that is my longest post everrr.

 

Good morning LauraMay,

nothing wrong with long postings. Your ones in this thread bring you good karma. At least in my universum .

I haven't read the whole thread in detail, so I can't give a good advice to the OP, sorry. Maybe some of the things you are now terming as idiotic turn out as desirable in a few years?

Regards
Gyro

 

Nonsense. We know things that suit us. Many of what we think are facts aren't facts at all. Just widely agreed on.

 

Most guys don't stick with the trophy girls for long. After two or three fucks, there is nothing left to do but move on.

The true idiots are the ones who think they know everything. They will never learn anything.

 

Sooo... You agree with me?