I think I'm a schizo..

Wow I once knew someone who had some crap like that going on.
This dude never wants to smoke cause he would always trip out kind of like you.

He only drinks beer alot. he never wants to smoke ever again lol.

 

Wow I am glad someone posted this. I thought it was just me! (or just people like me, the crazies). Especially when I start having like vivid flashbacks of the past week and I start talking to myself about them. I am now more than a bit concerned and I think I'll lay off weed for awhile, given what people have said here. Is it normal to talk to oneself while high? Or am i just one of those that shouldn't be smoking?

 

I'm kinda the same way for things on weed
If im not fully comfortable in a situation paranoia engulfs me
I convince myself that my whole life was a messup, like I was the only kid that didn't mature since 1st grade
I think too much about self esteem while im high and i notice something about myself and fear people around me as well as hate myself for being like that
Something as simple as not being able to stare someone in the eyes while talking to them, if Im blazed and uncomfortable i do this and I cant get it out of my head
It gets to the point where I am fully convinced I have a disorder or that im possessed

I end up tracing back every flaw in my personality to suttle events or circumstances of my childhood as if I'm one of those cereal killers that you can trace back to social rejection and conspiracy in childhood
I have gotten to the point where I was sure that I am one of those cases, socially awkward and developing into a psycho path
Of course the high wears off and Im fine again

But I have my way out of it
1. smoke with only a few friends if anyone, no more than a few people unless they are all immature and I cant possibly get embarassed or too self conscious
2. zone out to music
THIS IS THE BEST THIGN FOR ME
I can focus on the beat and enjoy myself in peace and harmony
3. smoke occasionally

 

nigguh i dont know where ur getting your weed from but u need to spark a nigguh up to that fire shit!

 

Lmfao

 

pot gives me racing thoughts sometimes too. sometimes I smoke and just wish I didn't

 

dude i get like that everytime i toke it. I just accepted it and push it off my mind and enjoy the experience.

 

my mom told me that i came out like that because she was stressed in early pregnancy with me.

I just control my thoughts and smoke some nicotine to clear my anxiety. Then im cool throughout the high.

Just forget about all your problems and think of how much better life would be if you had nothing to lose.

 

holy shit i got the goose bumps when i read this! this describes perfectly how i feel! i expirience the EXACT same thing. i kinda felt i was the only one who got like this when i smoke...

its like i go into my subconsience and think about every thing wrong about me and how everyone are better, prettier, funnier than me. like i go to the realms of extrmely bad selfconfidence.

and once i get into these thoughts its like theres no turning back, like im trapped in my own negative thoughts. i get completely quiet and some times expirience severe anxiety.

i do have positive expiriences too, if im with one or two good friends listenin to music, or there are some realy geekish people nearby that i can feel that im better than. and im not even gonna get into plice paranoia...

but anyway is there anyway to control this? where can i buy that book?

 

Yeah I get that way too, almost exactly. I just lose all my self-confidence and feel how everyone is judging me negatively and thinks they're above me,thereby I get social anxiety. I feel I'm not smart enough, not practical enough, not rich enough, not mature enough (I don't have a car and I've barely driven, although I have my license I'm now scared of driving) and that because I'm doing an Arts degree, I have no direction in life.

I also have positive experiences, and music really REALLY helps. I wrote a really lengthy post before about this in a topic about weed anxiety in the Stoners Lounge. Here.

 

I have been branded with the label of Schizo by doctors for around 2 years now.

One thing is for sure - if you decide to go to a doctor/hospital and if you tell them two things

1) you smoke weed
2) you get these experiences

the only thing they will conclude is that you are a schizo .... that is how simple the diagnosis is these days; people will make you believe it involves brainscans; taking blood samples and long evaluations

but the process is just as stupid as it was thousands of years ago ... the only difference is that they give you pills now instead of smashing your skull open to let the "demons" out



My advice - is do not get labelled with being a schizo ... your whole concept of reality will change and your friends/family will freak out if they see you doing drugs and will call the people in white coats ... and everything you say will be under judgement ALL THE TIME.

You will also get force fed medication; you might lose your job due to the amount of time you take off for being in hospital etc etc - you might lose your partner etc etc


I don't believe im schizo .. but what your describing is all that I described because I couldn't take it anymore ... and i feel and logically think that everyone is biased against the use of weed especially and believe those tv ads that say it makes you paranoid; the doctors will find you at your weakest moment in your train of thought and smash you down to the ground ... be very careful ...

drug users might thing one of the worst things that can happen to you is gettin busted ...

I would dissagree .. the worst thing that can happen to you is if someone takes you to hospital while on drugs/off drugs and say you have taken drugs.

BE VERY CAREFUL.

for more information .. contact me

 

You all need to start embracing the mind set weed grants you. You can always flip the coin, believe me.

 

going in and out of reality.. i had that shit happen even when i was sober. that was when i decided to stop smoking weed.

please, STOP smoking it.
have a beer instead :cheers2:
marijuana is so bad for you, and most people don't know it.

 

Probably not what you want to hear. But if it's messing with you like that, and opening windows to things that you aren't ready for. Then whats the point?

Don't worry, weed isn't for me either. Messes with my head too much.
And makes me super paranoid.

 

Please stop smoking weed!

 

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Its panic attacks man, if you have a week mind, or have past lsd, exstacy, phsycedelic in general history it happens, i have them to some times, not as often lateley, but for a while i did, only when i smoked. I still smoke everyday, and it dosent happen as much, ijust dont get super stoned anymore, just enough to use it as medicine, but even the design on this page is moving as i type this

 

you know what.. to be honest, the same thing's happened to me.
i would simply suggest staying off any drugs (including marijuana) and waiting a few months. if that doesn't help, go see someone about it.
cheer up it'll be all right. i used to get bouts of this kind back when i smoked.

 

sorry.. the reason i deleted my previous posts was because i don't want to deal with this anymore, and reading about it and going back to it only makes it worse.