In early May, I had a severe mental and physical reaction a 20g morning glory trip that landed me in the hospital. I have noticed that since, I have had some "odd thoughts" in the sense that damn near every experience I have in daily life ties into my spirituality; I fret over the Karmic consequences of my actions, and sometimes I feel like people can read by thoughts (especially my grandparents, who are also extremely spiritual). Sometimes life is just very surreal. I can tell that my thoughts are linked to my MG episode just in the similarity between the themes of thought, but sometimes I get really worked up and get scared that I might be developing schizophrenia. But on the other hand, it may very well just be a case of me going further "out there" than I was ready for, and now its just going to take time for me to balance my energies again. I've always been a spiritual person and used psychedelics for spiritual purposes, and quite frankly spirituality could explain most mental illnesses (as in imbalance in chakric energy). I spoke to my counselor about this and she said that as long as my thoughts aren't interfering with my life at all, that I shouldn't really worry about them because the anxiety can make them worse. I just don't want to miss the opportunity to prevent what could later become full-blown schizophrenia. Any thoughts?
I was plagued by "balance" for a bit over a year after a trip I had. I believed after every thing happens, something equally opposite would happen. And it did, because I believed it. But then I realized, its ALL up to me. And now Im free free FREE!
you'll work it out im sure. as far as believing people are reading your thoughts, lets bring it back in for a moment...your probably believing that because your feelings are intence (hightend sensitivity). our eyes reveal much. spiritual/wise people (like your grandparents) probably can pick up on alot of your emotions or reactions, but not to the degree you may think. this is normal.
what actions are there to fret over? nothing can be done. everything is allright, the universe is completely on track.
i have heard of someone killing themselves on HBWR seeds. LSA is not a toy. if you have a history of psychological illness in you or your family its best to leave such substances alone.
Yea but the same goes for any psychedelic really; I've never treated them as recreational, but more as tools to circumnavigate my psyche and develop as a person. But regardless, I'm done tripping for a loonnggg time lol. And I've learned that feelings of "going insane" are common for people on the same path as I (especially when psychedelics are involved) so it's probably just a matter of time before what's going on within me rights itself and I emerge as a better person than before. But blah it sucks sometimes lol, but 'tis life, verdad? Thank you to all who replied, your kindness has helped assuage my anxiety..for today at least. Namaste. =] Oh and if anyone's interested in a trip report let me know.
First of i would like to say if anyone ever sees someone that seems to have such mental problems as these that iam about to say ( Mind reading, Talking to the dead, Angel Like Features, Always numbly happy, talks to nobody, and any other type of voodoo type shit.) Leave the him or her alone lol, that would be something he or she needs to overcome through his or her willpower, nobody can help with something like that. Secondly, the eyes can be very deciveing, especially after a heavy psycadellic trip or any type of trip. Alll in good time my fair sir
it was a news article on the shroomery. it was a couple years back about some kid in Michigan who killed himself on LSA seeds (hbwr) and Marijuana. you can search it i dont really have time to look for it.
Lsa is powerful stuff. It's in the dose; a cwe with 5 to 10 seeds won't do much. I did a cwe with 2400 morning glory seeds split between me and a friend. It took so long to filter the seeds that we might as well have just chewed them up. That was long day; open and closed eyed visuals, auditory effects, it would have been a blast if I wasn't in so much pain. I learned a lot though. I also immediately changed my ideas about those seeds, let me tell you!... Omacatl is right, they are not in any way toys.
Yeah i don't like to admit it but after i did alot of lsd, i get the feeling people are reading my thoughts as well. I try to be logical about it but there has been some situations where people knew exactly what i was going to say or do, and it scares the crap out of me.
thankfully there are very obvious explanations right in front of your face that don't require you to invent something novel into your world.
im trippin on mescaline and i just realized that picture is odin. i looked at it while sober and never really recognized the one eye and the ravens. badass.
