I'm torn. Lately I've had the strongest urges to leave town and travel the country- even the world and just live. I'm tired of being confined to the limits of what the societal norm dictates I should be and I just want to completely free myself from these confines and just be ME. I love my parents, but they limit me from being able to go anywhere farther than the CVS down the street. I'm very thankful for the stable life I live right now, but the reality is I don't WANT it. I want to just go where no one knows who I am and recreate myself. I'm tired of being Taylor, and I want to shed my skin of this girl I don't even know. Unfortunately, I'm only 15, and that limits me. I'm someone who doesn't see the real benefit from public school education because I never feel like I'm learning anything, and so I'd honestly have no problem dropping out. At the same time though, I don't want to hurt my family in the process of my recreation, but I feel that it will be inevitable. What should I do? With all the love I have, Talia Blaze
Hi Talia, make it a learning lesson - don't limit yourself in order to know your own self better. Parents are just playing a role, and soon you all will be switching them again in the process of letting go. When I was around your age, I too felt caged in and just not real in a world that claimed to keep me safe and provide me a future existance. I did not want to be safe for the hell of it, I wanted to live my own ... and I did ... but this is what you do anyway, no matter how restrictive or 'false' your surrounding comes across. It is all still your own experience, and what you make of it is what counts (in your own book of life). Keep your humour, take it with a smile, be patient, learn as much as you can. Be real inside yourself, underneath the surface. Time is on your side. And talk with your parents ... they too got lessons to learn. Hope this makes sense.
Thanks for that. I probably sound like every other teenager, but your words toned down the restless feeling that's accompanied these feelings. I usually can handle the caged feeling when I'm at friends' houses or away from my home, but I think while the things I learn in school never seem to help me, the things I learn from the people around me enlighten me more than any text book has been able to. My humour will remain sound, the smile will never waver, and every day is really the learning experience, right?
I too felt like a caged bird in high school. My attitude was I cant do anything till I get that diploma paper. I took German so I could go to Europe. I took DECA so I could be out of school half the day with my job. Hang in there take advantage of classes and programs that you will learn something beneficial, like a foriegn laungage.
I wish I could learn another language, but because of budget cuts at my school they've taken out the languages for anyone other than International Studies majors, so I don't think I can take any language classes. I wanted to learn Japanese too. They cut German this year, but they had it the years before.
girl,your world is much different from mine in the 60's.the world has really gone crazy now,you cant just travel around anymore,to many mean people out there now,you think you could hitchhike from georgia to california now!no way.i did in 67',slept on the side of the road.i loved the era,wish it was back!Just be careful with what ever decision you make.
15 is probably a little bit of a dangerous age to run off, mind you. Sure, its a cool idea, but make sure you're honestly smart and mature enough for it. i'm sure you think you are, who doesn't, but people can hurt you, take advantage of you. 15 is a very young age. When i was 15 i thought I was sooo jaded, thought I knew everything and was soo ready for the world. My boyfriend's little brother is 19 and I still worry about him and feel like he's my little brother. he's a smart little fucker but also a bit arrogant and cocky and gets himself into trouble if i don't look after him. Even his mom says I'm a big sister to him, lol.
wsait till u get out of school then take a country wide trip---youll meet cool and dangerous people and will have lived a little--a 15 year old girl is a victim waiting to happen--especially if your gonna be hitchiking--find out where the rainbow family is having their national convention or follow a band around for a year much safer---been there done that but its dangerous even for a 6-1in crazy biker dude---be carerful--u got me scared now
Wait until age 21 & old enough to drink. In the mean time save money & be streetwise. Ur going to need.
Never a truer word said! The days of travelling alone are well gone and the world's a truly fucked up place.
You sound just like i have for the last six years but im starting to come around and realize..me. Its all about being yourself nd what/who surrounds you only impacts the person you are if you let it. It cant be an amazing thing to let people influence you and learn from and about them or it could turn up rotten, its all up to you nd who you decide to listen. You wanting to be free comes from feeling caged and as long as youve got a working brain a moving mouth and will, no one can keep you caged. Just try to stay n your best intrests because thats all your parents are trying to do. word of advise I dropped out, youll miss every moment.. try making an effort to learn on your own. once you find something that intrests you it will lead to more.
Thank you everyone for the wonderful advice. I've already decided that I'm going to wait until I've graduated high school and I have a license and can drive, and then I'm going on a 'journey' that someone posted on her a while ago. I'm still confused on college, but with the lifestyle I have in mind for myself I won't need a college education. Thank you all so very much for stabilizing my shaky thoughts and stopping me from making a potential mistake. I love you guys.
