ever since my last several salvia trips...

i've been feeling very distant from reality.

nothing really alters my mood, like when i would normally be disapointed, i fell as though i should be, but it really doesn't affect me.

. and i'm almost in my own autocosm, kind of enlightened, and when i'm thinking about something, i feel somewhat seperated from reality.

it's a very mild feeling, not entirely unpleasant, (although i used to want to go insane, it's like a weaker version of what i thought it would be like), and i've began to get used to it, but it's definitely there.

i suppose this is why it's a disassociative rather than a psychedelic... any other similar feelings? i did a horrible job of describing it, it's hard to. kinda like an EXTREMELY mild trip, all the time. my guess is that some is still in my system (3 weeks later?).


the last time i tripped i was with 3 friends, sitting in the woods, we were all high as mess, and i was the last one to go, they were all already out of it. anyways, we were sitting on a gravel road, and after the hit i layed backwards, and when my back touched the rocks i really lost it. the rocks shot through my entire conciousness like pin pricks, and lost all sense of the present reality. i saw everything, and nothing. there were layers of demensions, i was breaking through them. it was by far my most intense and profound trip. weed really took the uncomfortable edge off of it and really let me focus on the trip itself.

needless to say because of these effects i will not touch salvia for a good little bit, atleast until i get my head back on straight.


and sorry for the poor quality in which i wrote this.

 

I haven't quite experienced what you describe, but for quite a few days after my last salvia journey I had the feeling the something about my reality had been subtly yet drastically changed, though I couldn't quite place my finger on it. Ive also had the impression during trips that there was a huge secret that I was just barely not getting... quite strange, though in light of my last psilocybin trip it makes much more sense.

 

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yeas.

 

well when your perception gets stretched so far you can't just forget about that. like when you leave a footprint in the mud. even though the actual act of stepping in the mud -- the salvia trip -- may have only lasted a short period, there is still the footprint remaining. the footprint has forever changed the parameters of the mud in which it is placed. things aren't always as smooth as one might have hoped. they can be shaped, and molded, and dissolved completely even. you are waking up.

 

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wow, thanks for that man... that seems to have made everything make sense now. i finally get it.

 

Its so wonderful, how a completely synthetic form of human communication can bring me to tears. Thanks guys, I love you.

 

that first post i had doesn't even make sense to me anymore. it's more than just a chemical that can change your mind, it's the experience. I don't know why i thought it was such a black and white thing at first.

 

taking a breath makes you a difrent person eating a tomato makes you a difrent person and using psychodelics at least that i expect is to change me thats why they exist thats how i understand it