my ex fiancee was a heroin addict. i met him when he was in recovery, but he started using again not long after we were engaged and living together. when he started using again he became a monster. he is now in prison for the unspeakable acts he has done to me, and now I must bear a terrible large scar that will always be linked to him.
yes i mean i've done my share of opiates. i get real chill as well. i just have a personal thing against heroin, specifically shooting it. i respect everyone opinion and choice, but for me, heroin is not an option
The drug is not at fault. I was an IV drug user for four years and for two or three years before I got on the spike, I mainly snorted or ate my pills. I have been to countless treatment centers and detox facilities and I realized at the first one I went to that I was the problem, not the dope. That probably sounds like some bullshit a treatment center would ingrain into a person but for me, it is the absolute truth. I had friends that could shoot heroin, dilaudid, morphine, or practically any opiate for that matter and they could do it once a week and not want anymore until the next week. I am not like that at all. If I take a shot it just makes me want another one later in the day or as soon as I can come up with the money to buy more dope. Addiction is a psychological disease, some say that is bullshit, but after seeing thousands of addicts and hearing their stories, there is no way I could look at addiction as a "bad habit" or lack of "willpower." If willpower existed in drug addicts, there would be no need for treatment centers, detox facilities, and other maintenance programs. I am a good person until I get on dope and start using darts again. I did not get arrested and I did not overdose every time I used opiates, but every time I did get arrested or wind up in the hospital, I had been using opiates. Does that make sense? I doubt any of this post does because I am fading off so hard I can barely type. Do not blame the drugs for an addict's problem. It is the person that is causing all of the problems. I know it sounds harsh and I am not trying to ridicule your fiancee but it is the honest truth, and as they all say, everyone deserves to hear the truth at least once in their life. I am on Methadone Maintenance, going into my third year now, and it has been the only thing that has kept me off the spike. You or your fiancee should look into the Suboxone or Methadone (try Suboxone first) route and see if that might help because the chances of an opiate addict recovering without replacement therapy are about as slim as things get. Again, sorry for the long post. My dose has me extra fucked up this morning for some strange reason and it makes me ramble like hell. Take care and I wish you and your fiancee the best of luck. Take care, woman. -NICU P.S. I hope this helps with your concern and I was not trying to ridicule you or your fiancee. If you need to talk or anything, PM me. Thanks.
thanks for the response. he is no longer my fiancee actually. i also know that the environment where you grew up can seriously put a toll on you. His family has a history of drug abuse, and anger/control issues. I'm not blaming the entire situation on the heroin, but i think out of desperation to use the drug, he went after me. He was trying to get my engagement ring off my finger and broke my arm. i think he was either A. going to run because he had a warrant for his arrest or B. pawn it. Its still very fresh in my mind, and it hurts every single day thinking about the situation. again, thanks for the input and response!
Im very sorry to hear, but it looks like karma has done its damage and now he is in jail. Like NICU said, you run someone over in a car you cant blame it on the car. Just because heroin happened to be the vehicle of his outrage doesnt mean you can blame the dope. Anyways, there is a silver lining to this situation. You found out early on that he isnt the one you want to spend the rest of your life with if he pulls that kind of shit. Broken arm < Lifetime of broken feelings. Stay positive.
he lived in a recovery house, which basically means you do whatever you want, just no drugs or alcohol. i lived and live on my own.
