Life seems so pointless to me. It doesn't help that I'm painfully shy and super sensitive. I recently had to move back in with my parents (fml) and I have this sneaking suspicion I'm never going to find another job, another girlfriend, or even just a few fucking friends here... not due to a lack of motivation, but because of the anxiety. And as a result of all of that business, I'm beginning to feel kind of down about everything. I had the shyness knocked back quite a bit when I was living on my own (well, with roomates but you know what I mean) and for some reason I just can't get it off of me at the moment. It's really eating away at my mind. Anyway, what does a shy/sensitive type of guy do in a situation like this? Everyday life feels like so much more trouble than it needs to be. I have to muster up a strength I don't even have just to talk to somebody I don't know. It's so tiring.
well, to be honest, i applied for disability because the workplace was such a terror for me. any criticism or negativity i'd split. i'm not saying getting "free money" is your "miracle cure" but it could be a financial help while you get your mental health in check. i wouldn't doom myself to "ever" get a girlfriend or a job, i've been there, but taking time off for yourself and doing whats good for you is MOST IMPORTANT. And remember, when it comes to finding a boyfriend/girlfriend, let them find you, don't seek hem.
I am like, the female you. My mental health affected my physical health, as did the meds, so I can't work at the moment and I had to file for disability. Now, my family thinks I'm overreacting and faking being sick. Living with family sucks. So does being single. I also have the sneaking suspicion that it might never get fixed, but I've come to the conclusion that the first step is moving back out again. Hopefully, by the end of the year, it will happen.
I think you're right. Also, I'm dealing with physical symptoms that *could* *potentially* have to do with how I feel inside. I use asterisks because I don't totally believe skin conditions are caused by anxieties and such, but some sources say they do. I wish I had the balls to kill myself... but I'd make some people really sad.
