I dunno, when i was 15 or so i was all about getting more fucked up than ive ever been it was just the greatest thrill ever. Thats why doing high doses of salvia was like the most exciting thing. So i pushed my limits doing that, and have had the most intense moments of my life, now that i know how far the limits go, I just get more and more intimidated by these drugs. I liked it better when i wasn't scared of anything and just did the salvia like nothing. The first time i did dmt, i felt just as nervous as i would be doing salvia. I knew i was going somewhere i have never been, but thats what made me super nervous i diddn't know where i would be. So i did it, it was sick as fuck, but it was kinda overwhelming. Not as overwhelming as salvia has been though. Overwhelming should be a fun thing but i feel like im losing my balls.
you perceive someone called "you" who is afraid of, in truth, dying to these things. but you are not this "you", because you are there to perceive it, you are there before it arises to make the claim "i dont like high doses anymore". so this one called "you" who is afraid, let him be afraid, but the perceiver of all this, that one can still do this if he wishes it.
Wow when i first read your reply i had no idea what you were talking about. Then when i tried reading it again it makes perfect sense. The part of me that is afraid i don't believe is afraid of death, because it is in my subconcous at all times that you can't die from it, i think that part of me is more afraid about thinking alot more than usual at once rather than go on with the normal flow of life. It makes the extraordinary a reality, and that is alot to deal with when you aren't used to such a huge step up. Mabey if i do it more, then i can be ready for anything life throws at me. Its just the thing that really gets me is that moment right before you do it, that moment that you know for a fact you are gonnah not exist here anymore.
You will know when to slow your roll it's instinct. btw, stop screwin around with smoking salvia; you wanna be one of those tards on youtube that ruin it for everyone?
Here is a man smoking salvia. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QCwiAtnMsw Watch that video, and tell me that there is no look of recognition in his eyes, no divine sorrow, tell me that while he was in that state, he didn't "get it"
I have had my most amazing out of this universe experiences on salvia, and i am offended that you think i am someone who abuses such a sacred plant. When i do drugs, and feel the effects, i love every bit of the effects that are unique to that drug because it is unlike any other experience than you will ever get in life. I believe salvia is not only meant for us to push our limits of imagination, but for the people who want to scare themselves to try to test their bravery. This is what i find amazing about this plant and i DO respect it.
Interesting side note, the Mazatec shaman believe that it is showing disrespect to salvia to smoke it. They say that "she" will not come if you smoke the leaves, only if you chew them.
I think it was T McKenna who said that if at some point you aren't scared you took too much, then you haven't taken enough. I think it's true if you really want to trip. There will be something in your mind that's scared and nervous. But that's okay and nothing to get scared or nervous about.... (Sometimes when I'm forcing myself to finish up the dose of DMT while everything starts to get really weird....something in me thinks, "You are so cruel, forcing these drugs into this already confused and scared mind." If I listen and chicken out, it's usually not a great experience...but if I let the thought pass and continue on the task at hand, everything is fine.)
