Lately, i have been going through a series of increased paranoid thinking. I distrust everyone, even my own family. I feel everyone is out to get me, and each individual out there plays a different role in a grand scheme to harm me. Now, i have always felt this way, to a minuscule extent. Also, while the thoughts are frequent lately, they seldom achieve sovereignty over my actions. I think, but i dont act upon them. by acting, i do not have any drive to cause harm onto others. If anything, i feel more of a need to flee, and move elsewhere. My current explanation of why this is happening, can be traced to my fear of living an unfulfilled life, and dying as the loser i am today. This fear, i believe, triggers my "fight or flight" mode, which is causing me to harbor these paranoid feelings. How can i deal with this? Even in the back of my mind, i feel those who may read this will use this information to hurt me. However, i will still publish this, hoping that something good will come out of it.
So you realize, on an intellectual level, that these people actually aren't trying to harm you right?
That is still in question. Ill follow through with that belief that none of them want to hurt me, but i still have that question lingering in the back of my mind.
hmmm. Well, if you have no reason or evidence that they are legitimately trying to hurt you, then you should live your life as if they aren't. If you can sit and deconstruct your thoughts to where they seem silly and completely baseless, then you should realize that you are suffering exactly from what this thread is about - paranoia.
It feels more like a gut feeling, than anything else. I don't know, i felt that paranoia was the best word to describe what ive been experiencing. Im also very unhappy with my life overall. I also have this feeling of perpetual dread and helplessness.
And emotions are often at battle with our thoughts. Maybe it's why we have thoughts in the first place. If you are getting your information and allowing it to influence you through feelings alone, maybe it is time to sit and really reflect on why you feel the way you feel, and use some thinking time to figure out that these feelings are baseless and are arising from some problem within your own being-ness, and not an actual threat that other people are presenting. If you can accurately do that, and figure out why you feel the way you feel, the feelings themselves should subside.
I've been there... It's impossible to tell on what level anyone really does have it in for you.. And it's just part of the human psyche for males to try and dominate and for females to support who they want to be the dominant ones. So just on that fundamental level of sex you've got something to look out for. It's not just paranoia. But the worrying and the fear factor just won't help the situation. I learned to stop thinking...or I just couldn't think anymore. It's all a complete whatev' once you've been tormented long enough.
There is only one solution: stop smoking pot. It is highly possible it is triggering these symptoms and paranoia in you. It can cause mental issues like this even without always smoking. Some people get messed up after just one joint. You can take my advice if you want: take a 6 month break from weed and see how things go. Personally, I think you'll be ok I'm still waiting to get over anxiety from weed, which I've had for a month and a half now. Have a beer instead :cheers2:
