Time's change...and people grow more weary and desperate. Even hungry. You my friends have found many a suitor to savor your needs where I still keep a lonely vigil, watching forever the horizon for someone who can stand my presence and satisfy my hunger. Where as you find love in people meant and suited as if by fate, I find discretion and fear. Many have expressed open discomfort and hate in my presence. You inspire joy, happiness and peace of mind. I inspire all that make's a man a monster. I distill envy and lust from love. Jealousy is born upon my every word, rage upon my every action. Life is fleeting, passing us by as if we were no more than a leaf on a breeze, to be swept away at a moments notice. I live in torment, suffering in despair the life of a sinner, the life of a despot and monster. I hide away in darkness; I fear the light. Suffering is my best friend, peace my long lost lover. Every day, people come and go from my life. Sometime's I think back to remember them and how they affected me, to spark some kind of emotion in my soul. Most times I find that my soul is barren and empty, wasting away in the wind. I need help but more importantly, I need someone or something to rely on. I've taken up a new theme song, Courtesy Call by Sixx A.M. Farewell my brethren, I bid the adieu.
