how to stop using the needle, i'm dead serious.

Yeh i can honestly say ive got a strong mind and stomach, but i had to turn it off eventually, i stood up feeling alomost faint, and realy thought i was gonna be sick.

And as im an ex addict aswell ive seen holes in peoples legs etc .. nothing worse than getting that far into a mess.

To the op, i am clean now, i was hooked on crack cocaine and heroin, and used to shoot them both together at times, i also was prescribed subutex tablets ( opiate substitute ) and i ended up injecting that for nearly a year aswell, when i was shooting the pills i got so far down that i didnt care about my health or well being.

I couldnt even hear my best mates concerns as he tried to tell me what i was doing, Eventually i went to rehab, got cleaned up for 3 months + and failed, i relapsed with h + cc in a new city, I was obviously not ready at this point.

I came home and mainly chased just heroin for another year, but got on a liquid methadone script so not too inject any more tablets.

Long story short i once felt like you do now, the boredom, the pointlesness of life, no prospects, no fun / exitement no colours, no flavours ...

But you just got to run with that feeling for a while, because it WILL and does subside, you got any hobbies ?? if so spend time doing them, or find a new hobby, occupy your self by doing somthing - fucking anything apart from that shit.

My life feels great now, i feel posative about myself an am confidant in knowing who i am once more, i got a motorbike to get around on which i didnt have when i was fucked up, i do a bit of fishing which is my hobby nowadays and is also how i met my new friends ( dammned good friends aswell ) My family have started to trust me fully again which feels good.

What you need to do is listen to the voice in your head, as lying to your self is the easiest thing in the world, start thinking properly instead of half arsed day dreaming shit, and get things into perspective.
And then put the things into place to start geting clean and how to maintain that role from there on.

I wish you best of luck, but realy you dont get clean on luck ..

" you get clean on your own determination "


Also a side note, psychadelics also helped me regain the essence of life, they helped me put things into perspective, not for everyone but as i had a lot of previous experiance with them before becoming an addict i truted them when i cleaned up and was given some marvelous reminders when i tripped again of what life was about, and how beutifull the world realy is ..

 

Yeah, that's because you keep shooting them. What you don't seem to understand is that for you to get clean, you're going to have to go through probably several WEEKS of feeling like a wreck. It's either that or DYING dude. Which one are you willing to do? You wanna die instead of go through some amphetamine withdrawl? Get yourself into an inpatient detox program man, you're passed the stage of being able to help yourself. Your days are really numbered.

:smilielol5:

i have this nagging feeling that you are a troll

 

thanks deranger, i never really realised that the feeling of not really being in touch, and that everything just seems dull and boring could go away, thought i was like this because of brain damage or something, have been injecting alot in the past (thats why i want to quit now before it gets like before)

and writer, i'm not a troll, i don't know why i said that about brucespringsteen, i listened to a number of him and suddenly my mood got alot better, and that reminded me how much i'm influenced by music, also why i should stop with iggy pop (altho he is my favourite). i just apologise for talking this much, its this drugs, writing my thoughts down makes them less chaotic. But thanks, i'm going to try my best now to stop writing here. its really these drugs, i'm not looking for attention, at first it was really a shout for help to stop with this, now i'm just writing here because of the drugs, i know what i have to do, i got all the advice i need, now its time for me to take action. I apologise once again for this lame rambling.

 

I was thinking this is trolling as well

 

Sorry people, this just made me really depressed. Right now i'm this kind of person i don't like at all. Here is a happier poem. I'll shut up now untill i'm clean, this time for real.

The wind blows,
the trees sing,
a song about,
what was,
and what is lost,
the sun smiles,
bright light,
soon i will reach there,
with both feet,
i shall stond upon the earth,
and shout,
a song of life,
once more,
it will shatter the nightmare,
and what once was,
will be again,
peace at heart,
a silent mind.

edit: and don't worry, i will get clean now. Just almost went into shock, was freezing, and began shaking out of control, was difficult to keep my consciouness. i had this before, but never this uncontrolable. i was lucky to have water within handreach and warm clothes. this was just what i needed to stop.

 

phew, just had the last pill. no more prescriptions left. got terrible attacks of freezing cold, and fever like heat. Next time its either heroin i shoot up or nothing. Unlike when i first started with rilatin, i should be able to get some h (blame getting those contacts to the institute).

 

Dont start that shit. H is way more addictive than ritalin. Talk about painful withdrawals, what your experiencing is nothing compared to h withdrawals.

 

i'm really confused, i keep thinking about my codeine experiences and the pleasant heat and all, how i felt like a child. need to get clean now and straighten out my thoughts.

 

if you can get high off of codeine, then h is way to strong for you.

 

Tomorrow i will have 2.5-3g brown h, my dealer still owed my alot and got it all cheap. i'm tired of all this. hope i get the dose right, will try 0.1 first. i've been trough to much in one year time to care anymore. cyas

 

my troll radar is going off the charts

if you're real, then lol. you should write a goodbye letter to your loved ones and save it on your computer somewhere, you might be checking out any day now.

 

yeah I think this guy is just bored and making shit up, is that what a troll is?

 

A troll is just basically someone who posts a bunch of stuff to get reactions from other people, whether they be angry, sad or happy reactions etc.
Usually they try to get people worked up.. this guy just seems bored as all hell.

 

i thought trolling is tripping + rolling = trolling?

 

Well you have the right idea posting in psychedelics how to stop using the needle because psychs maybe can, like ibogaine though that was probably mentioned. Salvia, stuff like that, but sounds like you need in-patient detox if you're that addicted to Ritalin that you are switching to the horsey.

Your life is worth it, to give up freedom and feel some pain for a few weeks, so that you might live a life?

Imagine all the weed you could smoke in the rest of your life...

 

Who the hell is bruce springstein? And also, OP, stop being a baby.

 

kickin ritalin with H-town NICE!

 

so are you addicted to heroin yet?

there are some good threads by heroin addicts at bluelight.ru

ask for the link if you want

 

ritalin and vodka?

that's original =/

 

well i had some vodka today and i know I felt good..
but ya, try to find some joy in other things. drugs are the only things that bring you joy? that's impossible.. don't you get pleasure from sex?