if i had the guts that i pretended to, maybe i'd have the glory but instead i sit here contemplating, what might've been my story could've would've should've's, keep running through my head wondering why i couldnt say, the things i never said its all the way i planned it, with everything in its place yet here the truth is, slapping me across the face maybe it was all delusion maybe it was all in my mind maybe it never was, maybe you're just not my kind everythings so blurry, everythings so fake everything in retrospect seems like a big mistake i dont know what to say now, but its all fighting to come out i dont know what the fuck is going on, or what this is all about i lose a lot of sleep wondering where it all belongs i hear it calling out to me in each and every song for now i'll just ride it out, this rocky ebb and flow i'll have to trust in the universe to take me where i need to go.
Describes my life for several years...you will get to the place you need to be, just takes time. Peace and love to you....
