Dilemma - Please Help

Okay so two years ago I was dating this guy I was completely in love with. We were both virgins, and broke up before we did the deed. He ended up breaking my heart and it really impacted me for the better and I came out of it as a stronger and much more awesome chick. We were really in sync though mentally and physically (he agrees) so recently we started hanging out, talking, catching up. We've agreed that we have to be friends because we just get each other in a way no one else really can. He's had sex with two different chicks since we broke up, and apparently he's really good. And...I'm still a virgin.

The thing is NO ONE knows that. I was tired of being judged for it so almost everyone thinks I lost it on some trip to Georgia.

So the other night this guy invited me over and we started touching, then kissing. It was EXACTLY like it used to be. He said my touch always had a way of turning him on, and that he still bragged about my kiss. Then he asked if I'd lost it, that he heard I had. Well I kept up the lie. And I'm a damn good actress - I mean I will carry this bull shit through.

I want him to have it. I'm moving to Egypt within a year so we aren't going to be together or anything but he's the only person I trust to have it. I don't want him to know that I'm a virgin, I planned to just tell him the guy I was with was smaller than he was (to explain the pain) but what are some other ways I can avoid letting him find out? I've masturbated and whatnot so I don't think it'd be that awful. And I do plan to tell him right before I leave. I posted here though because honestly I really want to give him a great orgasm, and I'd like to get off too even though I'm a virgin. Any advice? (sorry for the length)

 

I think you're putting WAY too much into being a virgin. It's REALLY not that big of a deal, either way.

 

Just tell him. He'll figure it out if you sleep with him. We guys aren't usually that dumb. Just be honest. It isn't like he's gonna call you a lying bitch and walk out in a huff. If he wants it, he'll do it if you offer.

 

Why did you have to lie in the first place? It's not like 19 is too old to be a virgin, anyway.

I think you should be honest with him, too.