insanely scary mushroom trip

im still fucking torn up by this shit

last night i took a little under an eighth of some caps and stems and went to a party and had a good time, i was tripping a little bit but not way too hard, i was tripping for about 5 hours then when it got late i decided i was coming down and drove home. when i got to my house i chilled in my room for a little bit thinking about my life and shit and decided to try and sleep.

this is where it got fucking crazy. Ive tripped probably 50+ times and i have had my share of bad trips, especially on acid. But i have realized that bad mushroom trips are 10x worse than any bad acid trip i have had. I started trying to daze off and go to bed and then i started tripping NUTS. Its weird because i have noticed that all of my bad trips have come at the very END of my trip when im not expecting it.

my thoughts literally started skipping like a scratched cd
wha-wha-wha-what the-the-the-the fuck-fuck-fuck-fuck

over and over again it was going on for a good 30 mins so i decided to turn some music on. i started listening to the music and all the sudden the music started skipping, then my whole reality started skipping like a scratched cd. i was freaking out i started doing pushups and anything i could do to take my mind off the skipping but it wasnt working. I kept trying to go to sleep to make it go away then all the sudden i got this itch on my forehead. My hand started scratching it and all the sudden i was peaking really hard. It felt like the feeling you get from nitrious or "hippie crack" it was like i was at that peak and the mushies wouldnt let me down. I started flipping shit, everything started getting really intense and it was like someone was controlling my trip. I started to think i was about to go to hell i started seeing fucked up images of tortured people in my head and i kept trying to flow with the trip but the more i let go the more intense and scary it got.

It felt like i was about to enter the void and i was getting VERY VERY close to going over for good. Of all my bad trips and i have had probably 10+ bad ones in my tripping career, this was the worst of all of them. I was praying to god to give me one more chance, and it was like all of my bad trips have been warnings about where i was about to go, and i was so scared i wouldnt get another chance. I went outside and woke my mom up telling her i was tripping and i needed some pills to put me to sleep, i felt like if i stayed up any longer i would go over and i was scared shitless.

I ended up taking a 2 hour shower to take my mind off the crazyness and on the sensation of warm water. I told myself i would be a changed person after the trip was over if i made it without going insane. Its the next day and i smoked some herb and im starting to feel back to normal.

Of all my bad trips this was like the finale, im seriously not tripping anymore because of this mushroom trip, i honestly feel like acid is a lot safer than mushies in terms of bad trips.

 

Wow, that sounds awful man.
I really don't understand why that happened though, 90% of the time I'm almost myself again 6 hours after taking mushrooms. The only thing I can think of is sleep deprivation started to get to you if it was quite late by the time all this happened?

Some time away from psychedelics will probably do you good. And you never know, you might feel ready to come back one day.

 

Is they're anything bad going on in your life right now? I'd take it easy with the psychedelics for now. That's odd, six hours after taking an eighth, I'm back to myself. Maybe you can learn from those thoughts? Sit down in a sober state and thinking about those thoughts you had, maybe you can learn and become a better person from them? Idk man, but that's really weird, I normally fall into a nice deep sleep after tripping.

 

your "bad trip" sounds like a walk in the park compared to my bad trip! i have tripped 20+ times and each time i took 3.5 and never had a bad one. the last time i tripped i took 4.5 and went head first into another level of tripping. i had open and closed eye visuals that were so real and fuckin scary someone in my position would never do shrooms again...but i still love thos little guys...anyway just imajine having the time of your life and everything going down hill!!! i mean i saw demon and alien looking faces on the tv, i thought evil spirits were trying to posses me!, i even thought an alien was trying to kill me and take over my body at one point, i tried to smoke some dank pot that always makes me happy and it make everything ten times worse, at one point i blacked out/fainted out and woke up covered in sweat! i tried to go to sleep and got thrown into a place which i highly considered hell. these entities were doing some sort of fucked up ritual sacrifice and they were dressed in red hooded robes and were holding torches, and all i kept hearing was this scarey ass bell that kept being struck.this is only a tiny tiny fraction of what happend on my bad trip. that trip effected me for about a week meaning i was trying to make sense of it for about a week. A very horrific experience that i will never forget! but i jus love thos little guys i always learn soo much from them!!!

 

This is why we don't do psychedelics alone kids....

I have never had a bad trip, and don't plan on it. When I get it the state that I think I may die because I took too much of something. I think to myself, millions of people (example) eat a bag of mushrooms and they don't die. There is no reason I will. It makes me feel better.

The only close to bad trip I had was when I took 5mg 5-meo-amt my first time alone. I didn't expect to be tripping for over 24 hours, let alone tripping the hardest I ever have. I seriously thought I was going to die, but I was still happy. And I knew that if I did die, I would have died on the most awesome psychedelic trip of my life. I thought that I was seriously going to feel the effects of the amt for the rest of my life, that it was never going to end. I surely didn't expect it to be 24+ hours.

Unfortunatly it did...

 

^^ I'd love that way to much for 24 hours

Anyway, I have tripped alone before. And, well it had to be the single most moving experience of my life. But it isn't for everyone, everyones different.

 

its not like i was tripping alone...i was with friends for the majority of the trip and when i decided i was coming down i went home. I'm pretty experienced with tripping and i have tripped alone a lot so i wasnt really worried about having a bad trip alone. My head just started thinking on its own and i was in like 1 second thought loops. I never thought i was going to die either because i know you cant die on mushrooms. I have had other bad trips before thinking i was going to die but this one i was more afraid of going too far into the trip and not returning to my regular mindset. Mushrooms are very powerful and first time trippers should be careful when taking them because their potency varies.

 

I am glad that everything went okay. Sometimes these substances throw you for a turn. Sometimes for the worst.

But most bad comes when you are alone, and thinking. The two dont mix all the time.

 

haha that sounds fucking awesome.
Looks like you got a peak as to why the concept of free will is a total joke

 

enlighten me

 

It is my belief that the mind and nature are in fact the same thing, and that nature is simply the outward manifestation of the mind. In this way, the mind was evolved for the sole purpose of interacting with the outside world on a ever expanding deeper and deeper scope. Just as nature is fractal, the mind never ends. Well, my interpretation of the "skipping" is that you are actually perceiving the breakdown of the mind, whose chief purpose is to create order from chaos, or at least a semblance of order, in a linear and coherent (to us) fashion. We see the linear organization as time, we are able to put events in chronological order, but when reality starts to skip around like that, it becomes obvious how fucked up "time" and reality truly is lol. But the mind is obviously biased, and it's interpretation is always revolved around the "Self". To me, when the mind starts losing it's grip, it's like a computer crash, except for a few moments you get to see what's really out there.
Trust me, the "skipping" gets much more intense, whereas you were describing the skips as occurring once every second or two, they can go up to what seems like half a day before the skip repeats itself. You just live out your life, and then *skip*, back to square one. Repeat. And the thing about it is, no matter how many times you are like a CD, stuck on a scratch and trying to get through it, no matter if you still remember that you are tripping or not, no matter if it happens 5 times or 100 times, you always do the exact same thing. Every single time, you live out each skip in the same exact way. And it was that experience that destroyed what little faith I had left in free will.

 

Pfft, who's even there to have any free will

 

:...... ok i was with you there for a sec but you lost me at the cd part.

 

that shit literally scared the shit out of me. i mean i went and told my mom i was tripping because i was seriously convinced i was about to disappear and i wanted to hug her one last time. bad mushroom trips are harsh

 

my only advice in the depths of a bad trip is to detach yourself from what is happening. thats what i do, observe but remain detached and dont take anything personally. you really gotta move into the fear of going insane to do that though, idk, it works for me. cant hide from the fear, somtimes its best to just let it roll over you.

 

Something about the bolded part really gets to me.I'm not quite sure why, but I am able to empathize with you very well because of it. Do you feel you gained anything from the experience?

 

I agree with this.
Also, my experience with bad trips stems from disresepecting the mushroom trip, which isn't too different from disrespecting the mind. The psilocybin trip can be a precious thing, and it is meant to be so, but the moment you begin treating your mind like an entertainment platform, things can quickly turn messy.

 

hey drop the religion from tripping, doesnt belong there
so what, even if ur christian trip was real, at least, as someone puts it, youd still b aware, youd be at peace, or not.... whatever you call god is not there to punish you because you are being yourself. and, is better to still be aware than to cease to exist after you die. no matter what. although the later is highly probable.

what does it mean, to have a mind that is nature? did you mean to say we have a mind that evolved to be able to experience and manipulate nature? I dont get it.... and saying that the nature is fractal but the mind is "never-ending".... that strongly contradicts your free will theory
the argument of infinite regress in a causal chain should help you ditch the belief that we can reason and make free choices

 

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anyway OP you lost your shit. alot of what you said resonated with me, especially the moment when you realize you are not coming back, and getting stuck in a time-loop, and the feeling of a finale with everything leading up to that point.



anyway this change is for the better, my advice cherish the pure mind/spirit for awhile and take a break from the pot/caffeine/alcohol


yoga and meditation can be great ways of directing yourself in positive directions

ok i realized i'm spewing cliches and i should stop this

you'll find your own way, but i'm glad to know that you made it out :cheers2:


to life

 

me too