Were you always a psychonaut?

Were you ever prying into your mind before trying psychedelics or did they open your eyes up to the idea?

 

I've always been thinking... WHAAAT THE FUUUUCK IS THIIIIS SHIIIIIIT???

 

It's hard to remember back before taking any drugs....but yes.

People always thought I was on drugs before I even tried anything.

It makes me question all the statistics about how personality is affected by drugs, because for me I already had the personality and the drugs came later.

 

I wasn't asking the same questions I am now, but I was definitely always a thinker. I tried to start many, many riots in middle and high school, just to prove to people that they could think for themselves. Ended up getting kicked out of school. Mushrooms and LSD (as catalysts to growing up) have made me a much less violent and angry person now.

 

Yes, for as long as I can remember.
You don't have to use drugs to explore and expand the horizons of your mind.
My first memories of any experiences or activities that fall into the above descriptions was when I was about 6. I would go on wonderful adventures in my mind while observing nature, and I don't just mean daydreaming, but altered states.

 

I've always wondered "why"?

 

yes.

 

i'm going to have to say yes.

as early as middle school, i was always hanging back, just watching, wondering, thinking.

my gradual internalization has disrupted a lot of that, though. i'm trying to re-focus.

 

I was never concerned with my mental awareness until I was in my late teens. I was very confused before that. LSD definitely was a catalyst for self discovery, but so was growing up.

I was never into altering my conciseness with psychedelics until I turned 17/18.

 

Ive always been the philospher type, always try to think of things from a different perspective. I could feel sometimes as a child what lsd unleashed, a feeling of a deeper sense of connection. The feeling felt strange and alien at the time, like we were meant to be here for some reason we couldn't even imagine.

Then weed freed my mind from all the bullshit society gave me. My mind just broke loss, and I found my self, in the most unconditioned form. This experience again unleashed that strange feeling, everything is meant to be, and we are not alone.

Then LSD came, and well, that blew the hinges of reality. Now that feeling is oneness with all, no longer alien, but completely natural feeling, unalien, it is oneness with everything.

 

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I have always been interested and thought deeply about myself, the world and the universe. And everything in between way before psychedelics. Psychedelics made me think more clear and understand in my perspective what I thought was true or right. After psychedelics it made me want to learn about more things that I would have probably never have thought about before them though. I grew up as a flower child in Alaska with hippies, even their dogs have dreads. They are very knowledgeable and I learned quite a bit growing up around them. But now that I am in full blast in the world of working, having a family dealing with life as it throws shit bombs at you from every direction.... I have lost the mental state I once had back growing up with hippy infuences around me. I feel detached from what I used to be, but I still believe in it so I know it will come back.