Eating Shrooms... again...

Same mushrooms as i took last time (2.2g), this time i am taking 4.4g. They are nicely dry and i know they are strong as fuck.

So yeah, first time taking such a dose. I set up a nice and mellow environment, and going to try to let go and see where it goes, have weed and have loads of free time to recover and firgure it out afterwards...

Last time tripping i tried coming online when i was beggining to peak, and the forums were so hard to navigate, it seemed like a bunch of tubes connected to a cluster of purple, all the links being portals to said tubes... lol everything was so complicated yet plain and simple, i am unsure how i managed to change the music.
So i think i will stay away from PC.

I would love to trip outside, but i live in the middle of a busy city, it would be most uncomfortable surrounded by buildings and people, maybe during summer a camping trip, for now, my colorful and warm room will have to do.

Hope everyone has a cool evening, peace out.

 

Have a good time, man

 

Go out and walk through the city, through the dense crowds... now that would be a trip.

 

I do not think i am yet that comfortable with psychedelics, but i am sure under the right mindset it would be incredible

 

yeah i grew up in big city LA--hadda trip on the grimy streets---worst that ever happened was got soo high couldnt walk so just sat on the bus stop--and tripped balls---i remember that trip cas the bus went by amd left a trail about an 1/8 mile long--i could still see the bus going by but it was like a slinky the front of the bus turned the corner the rest kept going and going sliently cas the engine was already around the corner--the ghost bus and i could still see the people in the windows as the bus just kept going---longest trail ever--that was my favorite tripping in public and trying to keep it a secrete---failed more than once lke when i took off all my cloths and tried to walk city streets---luckily some friends saw me and rescued me from a certain bust lol--memories

 

Either you need to write a book or we need to get together and talk over a few bowls, some opes and some benzos.

:cheers2:

 

good vibes <3

 

Have fun and be safe!

 

yea man, i wish i could get my hands on some good acid or shrooms right now, it blows.

 

so you are eating them tonight then? try to find a park in your city. that's gonna be a hefty dose too. 2.2 to 4.4 grams. you might wanna eat an eighth?
fuck it, you probably already ate them and won't be back til you're sober

 

good luck and be prepared for an ego death

 

I want shrooms. I haven't done them since I was a kid.

 

Have fun and good vibes are going your way

 

Oh man...

I am not going to write a too detailed trip report, because much of what happened i can not put into words. I am still figuring it all out, but i saw so much... fuck.

I have to say, after 20min of ingestion, I was near certain it was going to be a bad trip. My stomach hurt really bad, i was feeling nauseous and really exhausted at the same time... My mind felt too tired to work with what was going on... and when the trip began, i was sure i may not come out of the night, i felt really alone and scared, recognizing the visuals and the feel just like the previous trip with half the dosage, meaning the trip was still accelerating and the anxiousness and pain made it really hard to let go... Everything was really dark and moody, i knew it was just the shrooms, and this meant there was nothing that would possibly help me, no way out, i was on the train to the unknown, and its not going to stop until it comes back... so i just had to keep going reassuring myself that there was nothing i could do but wait it out, and hope the pain is temporary... I began tripping out really hard. This was around an hour and thirty minutes after eating the dose... I quickly looked at some old pictures of my close friends and family, it provided some comfort and positive emotions - something familiar, i feel this made the dark and negative mood change into a much more positive, i got up and realized my body stopped aching and stomach pain was completely gone, i felt light as a feather and full of energy, i kinda began understanding the shrooms meant no harm to me, it was just an obstacle i had to overcome to actually learn to let go... This was where i felt my brain go off autopilot and stop fighting the experience, it was like it handed the steering wheel to me, and i happily handed it to the substance... It felt right, and i was now beginning to peak.

During the two hours which followed, time went back and worth, it was more of a day then just 120 or so minutes. The sky changed from bright yellow to dark blue to deep red, as to symbolize the rotation of the earth and the continuous cycles... I believe i may have experienced an ego death, there was a period where i no longer knew what or who i was, my mind was blank. All my memories seemed more like pigments of an imagination i possessed at the time so far away, like it was more of a stimuli and a reaction in some lab, then an actual event in my life... I no longer saw reality as real, and the conclusion i came to was that i was now in insanity, but it was incorrect... i now rest that it was the unexplainable in between, the wonders of wonderland...
Which was fine, i accepted it at the time, that everything was just nothing... I scribbled thoughts into my notebook, at around 2am, i realized a huge joke may be played on me... maybe it was played on me my entire life? I spent a while seeking evidence that i did indeed wake up from my sleep, because it is how i felt, finely seeing the truth without my mind blocking everything out like some involuntary censor. When i stopped, it hit me, it was everywhere, emotions i never felt before, ones which my mind would block out - and for what? to protect me? I was experiencing such a mindfuck, i found it hard to accept that i actually recovered and came back to reality towards the early morning, i was sure huge elements of at the time perceived nothing would carry over, making me crazy to everyone else - and i was more acknowledging it than being concerned - i felt it was better to be crazy because of the truth, then normal because of the lie... And even though my thoughts did carry over, i am still functioning and digesting it very well with no apparent psychological damage... Just a crate full of very interesting material i am enjoying deciphering and analysing...

And i feel very glad about the whole experience, the horrific start seems very worth it... I now feel more in control of my mind in away, knowing it was i myself who changed the direction the train was moving in... This makes me wonder, maybe i am ready for an even stronger dose (7.5g)? I still see a tripsitter as a potential distraction, there were times during both trips when a friend reasuring me would have brightened up the experience, but im coming to believe the dark is a very important element needed to better understand either, and the process requires personal effort and willingness more then just validation and comfort...

Anyway, fuck, as i said, im still digesting everything, the refreshed state im now in , at peace and neutral, its pleasant and bliss after the scrambled bs of the past few weeks.

:/

 

so true. :cheers2:

 

Oh wow! That sounds like a really powerful and crazy trip. I have experienced the reality thing once while trippin.. it was really weird. I knw what you're talking about when you said that.

Anyways, I'm glad you had an alright time with the shrooms. That makes me wanna trip again and I said I wouldn't do shrooms ever again haha

 

wow, that sounds like a crazy trip, I am glad you shared your story, this is why I will never do any other drugs besides weed, Thank you

 

Lol that story was sweet, I didn't even drift off in my thoughts while reading it. How long did your peak last? Sounds like you got some decently potent mushies.

 

I was telling myself that during the come up, i felt so shit i thought surely its not worth this feeling... But i was worth it.

Well, around 12:30 is when the pain dissapeared (an hour and half after ingestion) I was tripping hard by now, around that time is when everthing just evaporated and i figure this is where i peaked... And next time i looked at the time it was something like 2:20... Untill 3am i began making small ammounts of sense out of things, and thats when i put on some Tool, and just laid in the dark reflecting on what had happened... The exhaustion hit me again, and i went to sleep at around 3:30 - while still having mild visuals.

Shrooms were homegrown amazonian cubensis.