what the fuck is wrong with me?

Oh you damn fake (only fake because you're 18, not 80 years old) hippie in Santa Cruz...go to college damn it.

 

I am in college. Don't make assumptions damn it.

 

I would say lay off drugs for a while and see if you can get some hep for your problems. I'm not saying it has anything to do with using drugs, but your using them to feel better or "normal".

 

I can make all the assumptions I want. I went to college in Santa Cruz, too, so I'm entitled to be just as stupid as all the other college kids currently in SC. Hahhaaa, just kiddin bro, go smoke your weed and give some adults some backtalk for me.

 

If you think drugs might be making it worse, they probably are to an extent.

it might be a good idea to lay off of anything hard, and maybe even take a break from pot to see how it effects you.

if you have the money, seeing a therapist might help a lot...they're not all douchbags you know.

good luck...feel free to PM me with any questions

 

Also, are you drinking coffee? Lots of caffeine will intensify your anxiety.

 

i did some weed on saturday and i'm just glad its over and im sober now. i feel GREAT normally, and then when i get high i become flat and emotionless. i cant take it. im thinking of maintaining my policy of "one-hit-wonder" and when toking, never do more than one long, deep hit. i can't take it. i go from being a happy camper to being completely isolated and withdrawn. but this it probably typical for weed. it does tend to make you withdrawn.