Basically I've never had anything but bad luck with so called relationships. I've never had one last over six months and those two came down to a purely physical screw fest. I really wish I could be happy just being alone because the alternative hurts too much and I've never had a chance to be a proper girlfriend, but at the same time I can't enjoy myself single. Any suggestions to living alone and liking it? I wouldn't mind being a spinster if I was at least happy.
I've been single for a LONG time too. Lot's of casual "screw fests" as you call it...but that was fine for me for a while. I am now in the feeling that I would like a relationship and the last two failed...I left them for different reasons....it would never work so it was pointless to be in a relationship just for the sake of it as I never saw any real future with those guys. I suggest you meditate on what makes YOU happy or what could make enjoy being alone with yourself. I know how hard it can be....I'm not one of those people who are content just lying around alone on the couch watching tv on my spare time. And...there is only so much reading one can do per day before that gets boring. Maybe volunteer for something like the animal shelter or even something like visiting the elderly in nursing homes who have no family to comfort them. When you get out of yourself and give to others it WILL make you happy and maybe fill a void for you. I dunno...I'm currently not happy with my situation and I really don't know what else to do in my position to make myself happy. I just try to take things day by day and remember that tomorrow is a new day and I do try to meditate on enjoying my time alone with myself. It's a work in progress. Best wishes P.S. A nice glass of white wine everynight makes me quite happy and more relaxed.....
Just adopt 15 cats in a small, dark and stinky house. Aren't you a bit young to worry about being a spinster?
