I just need some advice.

Okay So to start, I'm 15 going 16 in April. I go through all the teenage drama and family bullshit. But I'm usually the calm peaceful one, I don't start anything. I smoked all 8th grade summer, weed to be exact. And I loved it. Nothing horrible about that summer. I hate the guilt I get though. My dad is that type of guy who is all into sports and success, my mom is overboard christian...


I'm going to start up smoking this weekend with my boyfriend, the only thing i don't like about it is that it burns badly but i love the affect on me so I don't care much after that. I don't know what to do if my Dad finds out, he hurts my little brother a lot, I just hate fights altogether. I see a lot of shrinks because I "have too" I just got of the hospital a few weeks ago. For "mental problems" Got sent there because some dumb ass doctor I went to see to get some Xanax or something for my anxiety and depression, sent me away. Anyway, I'm not a pyscho I Just am paranoid to do things my way. It's always been my DADS way. Anyone going through this? Controlling parents and such?

I just need some advice or modivation...

 

Kill your parents in their sleep.

 

Yea, growing up my mom wasn't the best parent and my siblings and I got a lot of crap. Eventually you'll totally learn to detach from it, I suppose. Why not try appeasing your dad in some way? Take some yoga classes instead of a sport, or something.

 

Well lol, I don't think I will kill anyone. I'm thinking about doing what you said, I really want to try Yoga, it sounds fun.

 

i am 30 years old and am still trying to do things to please my parents. idk why, but i think that they may have seaid some things to me when i was young that really stuck in my mind, and i am forever trying to fix it. such as my dad telling me once that i was the meanest kid ever born. doesn't sound that bad a comment, but it really stuck in my mind and i've been trying to correct it ever since. and i feel my mom made a lot of comments to me when i was young that made me feel that what i was doing at the time was a really stupid thing to do, so i find myself trying to do things the way she would like me to. i feel for you, i hope you can get past worrying about what they think as you get older, cause it causes a lot of hell as an adult, with the guilt and what not.