need some adivice/guidance/answers from the experienced

Hey all this thread probubly be more suited for the mental health section but i wanted some advice from the experienced more than anyone. So in the spring/summer of 2008 i got heavily into LSD and really have been going though alot of weird scary stuff since then and i really need some help. Let me also add that after that summer the "vail" or illusion of my childhood was also really revealed. I went from thinking about my father as a hero, to thinking he is a sleeze. There are realy countless things that i became aware of in my life that were all illusions but i wont get into them all right now.

This being said what i have been experiencing is really hard to describe but i will try my best. I have been extremly depressed, like no energy dont even wanna wake up kinda stuff. I have had all kinds of crazy unwanted thoughts racing through my head, stemming from sexual in nature to self harming in nature to thinking i am skitzo. I have all kinds of weird urges, like i will be sitting i alnoe by myself and have the urge to crawl around on the floor and make strange noises for no reason at all. I really cant sleep ever and if i do its always interupted. My thoughts are also quite random and i am finding it hard to focus, this has cause my mind to get stuck in a loop of trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Literally thinking about whats wrong with me takes up about 70% of my day or more everyday.

Please help there is alot more to tell i just didnt wanna put it all in one post

Thank you all so much for taking your time to help me out

Much love -Dis

 

all i can say is it sounds like you got a little out of controle for a while,. it happens to a lot of people, it can take years for you to regain more normal functioning, i had a friend that lost the ability to read for two years and still doesn't always see straight, gets tracers, and color changing......
basicly after so much abuse, youve got a while to recover and you may have to re learn a few things..

 

Lack of sleep can cause all the rest of the problems that you're describing, if it has been going on long enough and is severe enough. You can experience anything from fatigue to pain to hallucinations to bizzare urges and thoughts. Lack of sleep can start with taking drugs and then become self-sustaining after you've become so sleep deprived that it triggers other symptoms.

My suggestion is to see a doctor for the sleep aspect of your symptoms. There are any number of reasons why your sleep might be out of whack, but there are special sleep clinics that deal with fixing all those issues. Once you get your sleep back in order, you may find that the rest of it clears up on it's own fairly quickly.

Above all else, don't give up hope. There is always hope. Things will get better, it's just a matter of finding out where the problem is. The first step is with a doctor.

Good luck, man.

 

thanks a bunch both of you, i know i have the strengh to get through this but its good to hear from other people that im not fucked in the head for life any other advice ?

 

You need to get totally clean for a good while. No drugs! Force yourself to exercise. Work up to long runs or at least very long walks. The exercise will help clean you out, is better than medication for mental health (depression) and it will tire your body out and help you sleep. Along with the exercise you may consider melatonin to help get your sleep cycle straightned out. Use an alarm clock to help get you back on track. Schedule permitting, when the alarm goes off put on your sneakers and hit the door at a run. For some, early rising and early exercise is as good as a drug. A good sunrise is a drug!

 

This is some of the best advice you will ever get

 

yup, take vitamins and try to eat regularly too

 

all kinds of things can happen, for a while, due to lsd. Don't worry about crawling on the floor and making strange noises- our society definitely does not expect anyone except young children to behave this way- by all means, get into it! It will help you to "liberate" any repressed feelings. Dancing and singing also. "you never know what is enough, until you know what is more than enough"

 

There was something that someone once told me, and it helped me a lot to deal with negative thoughts very similar to what you spoke of, and that was that One positive thought will cancel a lot of bad thoughts.

Don't dwell on the undesirable thoughts that come into your mind. You are not alone in facing them. Like a song you don't like that gets stuck in your head, the more you try not to think about it, the more you do. And your brain develops patterns.

Try to focus on the good things about yourself, about your life, about the world. And when the dark thoughts come around, blow them off, don't give them the time of day. Instead, think about something happy. It gets easier with practice. I promise.