do you enjoy HPPD

It seems many peoples attitude towards it are somewhat like "textures will go wavy and ill see patterns on surfaces, FML!". Now i've never had anything of the sort, but i imagine it would be pretty awesome to experience it unless there was some huge feeling of dread everytime you had it which doesn't seem to be the case. for those of you who notice it, do you enjoy it?

 

For the first few months I had it (still do, but its diminished significantly) I hated it, thought I'd never be "normal" anymore. But I don't even remember how the worlds "supposed" to look honestly anymore, and I've grown to actually enjoy it as I've developed some sort of control on the intensity of it....waiting rooms never bore me anymore

 

what does it stand for?

 

I'm either neutral about it, or I like it.
It has never affected me in a negative way..

I don't get serious HPPD, but occasionally letters move and patterns pop outta nowhere..
*shrugs*

Musta been all that 2ce

 

It can make reading, comprehension, memory difficult. General burnt-out (too much tripping) or post-trip (recent heavy trip) are not very fun MMT. It may sound like "free trip!" on paper but really it makes your life difficult.

 

^ that one.

though psychs made me schizo not HPPD.

 

is that what you've been experiencing personally from your frequent usage recently?

sunshine child: care to elaborate?

so you dont really feel a creative boost or general euphoria at all when your experiencing mild HPPD? i imagined thats what it would be like after frequent tripping, as dumb that sounds.

 

Couldnt agree more.

 

i don't think i've ever had serious HPPD, but a little from 2ce. i notice letters move around occasionally, and maybe think i see something out of the corner of my eye, but it's not really too big of a deal. sometimes i think it's kinda cool, other times i ignore it.
and some rare times, i might start to wonder what i have done to myself...

 

nothing to elaborate, people just look down on basement shamans.

 

I've never had much of an attention span, but mild visual distortions are often a lot more interesting than some of my daily activities...

if i'm actually trying to do something it's never bothered me one bit.

 

MMT, when people say a flashback is like a trip, they pretty much mean everything except the euphoria. its more like a mental episode, a hiccup indicative of damage on some level.

 

i really enjoy it, and i've found i have some degree of control over it. i see it more as enhanced perception than a disorder, but then again i can see it being a problem if it was more intense and some of you have probably delved into higher doses.

 

I hate it. It doesn't feel totally right.

 

I find that if i try, i'm able to give myself pretty significant visual distortions...and have for years.

it's interesting though...i believe a lot of it has something to do with being bored...it's been said that the lack of external stimuli can cause hallucinations.

Are you guys WITH strong HPPD the type to get REALLY bored on a regular basis?

 

also, for those of you who have HPPD, does it deter you from using psychedelics much again or do you still desire the experience?

 

from what i understand, HPPD is usually accompanied by some sort of anxiety disorder or uncomfortable feelings of depersonalization.

 

It's very random, sometimes I get that damn anxiety and two times I got pattering hallucinations.

 

I have consistent hallucinations no matter what I do. White has for a while had many colors in it, no matter how I look at it. Walking into a dark area causes me to see shadows move that are not there. It takes me at LEAST a full 5 minutes to be able to see in the dark enough to walk. When I blink sometimes I see strong colorful patterns that are CEVs that project after I open my eyes onto the sight I see for 20 seconds.

Its not a good thing to me, but not entirely bad anymore. It used to suck bad, being in Iraq and all. But now its not that bad.

It does deter me from using much more though. I plan on doing 3 more trips (50mg AMT, 35mg 4-aco-dmt, and my 2 hofmann hits from netherlands). After that I don't think I will be dipping into psychs much until I can look at white without seeing colors (other stuff happens too, but thats what bugs me. bouncing letters, etc..)

 

So misunderstood...

I dunno. Maybe things like driving a car are hard because you realize that you are moving at a high speed in an advanced machine, with lights and shit always shining into your eyes. Maybe things like playing an instrument are easier because you understand what you're doing with that too.

Unnatural things seem more unnatural than before the trip
Natural things seem more natural than before the trip

I also find it odd that people don't consider that things other than psychedelics are the cause of their feelings and sights. Psychedelics open you up to things, this is just what they do. So it is explained why you might not have noticed these things before your journies. But if you don't feel right, maybe something is up with your body. Look at it like this: most people drive around in cars, use computers, use cellphones, watch television, consume from plastic containers, live in buildings, etc etc... Well these things all have chemical compositions in them, and function in strange ways, many of them not that great for the health. When you eat psychedelics, you open up, and maybe instead of the psychedelic causing harm there is something else that is effecting you. Maybe those things are the source of your uneasy feelings.

If you don't like what you're experiencing, then change. I can tell you that the so-called civilized living is not a fun thing to do if you like to eat psychedelics. In fact, I think that the lifestyle is insane, you'd almost have to be nuts to live it, but that's just my opinion. I've found that many things commonly done by people seem to build unpleasant effects associated with hppd, and when I stop doing those things the particular effect subsides.

I'll leave it at this: spend some time with clean air, clean water, and good food. Exercise. Try some time away from machines. If you are healthy, the HPPD 'disorder' won't be a bad thing anymore. And some good info to help you, is here.