Don't you hate those days

That is what you get living by the sea.

 

Do something exciting to break up the rut babe. Go shoplift a habnero, eat it, and kiss a stranger.

 

Maybe I'll do the first two things on the list

 

I got in a habanero eating contest once. Other guy won by eating two. :biggrin:

 

Did you puke?

 

Nah. And after the pain wore off, I'd never felt more alive.

It was kinda like skydiving.

 

I've been on autopilot for about a month now.

It gets bad when you watch yourself commit suicide. Again and again. And then wake up and really aren't too sure if you're actually dead or not.

Feels bad, man.

 

Damn...better than having nightmares, like dreaming that you brutally tortured and murdered most of your friends, and then had kinky sex with your unmurdered friends in their blood (that dream still freaks the shit out of me...).

I have a theory that all of this is a coma dream, and I have been in a coma since a horrible car accident I had back in 2004...

 

Nope, I get ones like that, too. My night terrors are really deranged. I can't believe my brain thinks up shit like that.

Sleep used to be a respite, now I dread it. x_x It's starting to get better. Now I just twitch a lot and jump outta my skin three or four times during the night.

 

I know the feeling, I suppose.
I always think of that Disney song "A Dream Is a Wish Your Heart Makes"
My heart is fucked.

 

Been dreaming weird shit goin on 25 years now...when I was 5 I used to dream of mountains of dismembered corpses or skeletons walkin around killing people, or zombies eating my family & friends. I have horrible dreams. Used to get so bad, it turned me into an alcoholic. When I drink, I don't dream. But my dreams tend to go two ways: hot sex or blood & gore. Used to see a shrink about them a few years ago, but they usually chalked it up to an abusive dad or drug use. I can't even take acid, cause it tends to bring all that shit up to the surface...

 

Either some posts got deleted or the OP needs to take a break from the drugs

 

the beginning of this thread does seem a little off

 

A bunch of posts were deleted, lulz.
I guess they were inappropriate.
It laughed when I just re-read it.