I recently went to detox. I've been doing drugs of all kinds since I was 12. I was in detox for 8 days (from benzos) and left against medical advice with this dude who I met there. Then the next day rehab (the one i wanted) accepted me and I was only there for 2 days before I left. I left because I was stuck in a house with all women who I heard talking behind my back about my weight (saying I was anerexic which i was not) and making fun of my PTSD ( I was raped as a child, quite brutally). I did learn SOME skillls in detox but since I've been home i've been a mess. I got off the drug abuse simply because I i didn't have a choice. Since I didn't complete rehab my family sold my car and took my checks and debit card. That was the deal we had.....if I didn't complete it they would make a rehab at home for me. Since I lost all my connections (all I want to do is shoot up) I've started drinking. I never liked alchohal before....EVER. But it's so much easier than dealing with dealers who are sketchy and blah blah......plus I only get money from my account when I need it for somethng. Like today....I got $2.15 for a coffee for work and I spent it on 4 teeny bottles of rum. All I think about is drinking now. I have no insurance and no way to pay for a NICE place to go to rehab. Plus I really wasn't into the 12 steps. I just didn't get it. You either do it or you or don't. It's a choice. Maybe not, maybe it's a disease that I have but I chose today to buy 4 little bottles of rum instead of cofffee. I dunno, just wondering if anyone's been to rehab and how it worked out.....just wanting to hear some similar stories I guess so I can relate. No one in my family has EVER had addiction issues so they have no clue what I am talking about when I try to vent. They see it as a bunch of crap they don't want to hear. Just wondering who can relate.........
It works if you allow it to. That is, if you dont have a problem with being brain washed. Find help from somewhere else man, shit come to my house and I will do my best to talk with you. Rehabs and other institutions are worse than jail. Stay the FUCK away from any kind of that shit.
if I lived near you I totally would. Yeah the rehab I was at was not anything I was used to. Gross showers, telling you when you can smoke, telling you what to eat, not allowing you in your room to nap or any thing....and when I got there my body just STARTED going thru detox. I was a shakey mess and they wanted me to read the "big book" and then do a whole work book on it plus chores and all that......I could'nt handle it
Yeah that sounds hard, you know just because you don't have the answers, doesn't mean anyway one else does either. Just keep trying.
it works if you work it, so work it, youre worth it.... obviously you learned nothing... lol... g-d grant me the serenity to except the things I can not change, the courage to except the things I can, and the wisdom to know when someone is an idiot...
im not an idiot for not sticking with it. I know many ppl that havent. It just wasn't for me. It might be in the future but there's no need to be so rude.....really.
it's just one approach to the situation. personally i would take up pr0ne's offer, it's likely to be more effective
I might be able to relate ;p but let me just say - If you like drinking, then simply drink; enjoy it, lol, but detox and rehab is for nothing more than getting yourself out of those habits, while at the same time learning new habits, and getting accustomed to 'mundane' activities. Though, I am aware that rehab sort of enforces a stigma around drugs and addictions - that they 'are bad and should be avoided' (seeing as the first step or whatever regards admitting that you have some sort of problem), and that's where I don't totally agree. To me, it's up to the individual to reach these conclusions on intoxicants, and to also look at their lives objectively and see if their use of intoxicants is effecting their lives in a negative way. Some parents are going to be like that, but probably it's because you're living at their house. I don't agree with kicking kids out, or forcing them into programs, but when you're doing drugs and are becoming of age they do have rights (to just throw you out), so I mean if I were you I'd try and straighten up a bit so you can get out on your own without the harshness of having to do it while tossed out on the street. If you were doing heroin heavily and they still keep you inside, I'd take that as a blessing almost. Lots of parents I know aren't as forgiving lol. I wish you the best of luck, PM me if you ever wanna chat.
Losers are not people who fail, they're people who give up trying!! Keep truckin, man. It's all anyone can do in life, we've been here for thousands of years and we're all still just fucking chickens running around with our heads cut off! We try things, they fail, we try new things, they fail, we try new things...rehab isn't for everyone, it helps a lot of people but it's still a maybe-maybe-not thing depending on the kind of person you are. I'm so sorry, I really have no helpful advice but all I can say that you're a chicken just like everyone else, don't give up! There are a million resources and a million ways of getting over addiction, just keep running around and looking for what will work for you. You're issues are NOT bunch of crap, they are valid and you sound like an intelligent person who's just having a hard time living with life right now. You being aware that you have a problem is a really important step, now believing you can cope and get past this and not giving up even when things fuck up is the next! I wish you so much love, and the best of luck and strength. Everything you need is inside you. It's just a matter of wrangling it up.
i think the 12 step program is flawed to the core. all iv seen it do is make people weak..."im powerless over my addiction" ..."im an addict for life" ...."20 years sober and im still a recovering addict" ....boo hoo poor me. it really does keep people chained to a certain level of weakness, if you believe it you rob yourself of your full potential and strength. notice how the relapse is also very much built into the program...thats why everybody does it. then they get to come back and complain about how they've failed and how strong their addiction is. they get to be at the center of their own pity party all over again. i think if your serious about changing habits that have been destructive to your life, the only way to do it is by drawing upon your will and inner strength. the 12-steps arent going to help, they drain you of that fire you'll need. sure a support group is crucial, but it needs to be a healthy one...good freinds and family. i spent the better part of a year in a rehab center when i was a teen (long story), then had a court order to go to those damn NA meeting for a while, and iv never seen the 12 steps work for anybody in a healthy way.
I have never been in your position. But I would assume that you will only be able to stop if you want to. If you don't want to, then it doesn't matter what program you try, you will be unsuccessful. I have never heard of any other program other than the 12 Steps and AA working. Relaps is built into the program because most people do relaps and if they have not learned about relapse then they would likely feel there is no hope and never try again. I do know that AA has worked very well for a close family member of mine. He has been sober for over 25 years. In my view, a big part of staying sober is sticking with teh 12 steps and encouraging others to do it. By teaching others and helping them, you in effect are reminding yourself how and why. Again, I have never been through this and I can't imagine how hard it is. Just thought I would share my perspective from someone who watches another live their life after addiction.
my experience with something like "rehab" was stupid. it works for some people, and that's great...but i did opiates because they let me sit through things like that. once i stopped going i was fine. but if you can't do it on your own than it should defiantly be considered as an option
