Hello everyone, I'm new here and as much as I feel inclined to post in the Introduction thread, I'm sad that my first thread will be a help seeking one. I have this opiate dilemma here, and I hope for my sake I'm blowing it out of proportion. I have had been using Heroin for about a year. Before that it was Codeine and Vicodin. So I started with one balloon, loved it then went with two. As I started to go to three balloons (they weren't a day, they were weekly) I lost all contact with my only dope provider. At first I thought it was no biggie, I quit Crystal cold turkey and weened off Cocaine (by choice). I was wrong.So cut to these two last weeks. I don't know why it took this long for my body to react to the loss of heroin but it did (I had been free of it for about two months). It started with cravings then just the other day I threw up twice on the street and at home I couldn't even keep water down. Being the wanna be doctor I am, I started to self medicate. I used Antivert for nausea, Valium for anxiety (which I have naturally) and muscle aches, and like 4 times the normal dosage of Ultram just to get a little buzzed so I wouldn't be a dick to everyone and it kind of gave me energy too.So now, I went to try and check myself into a methadone clinic. I had just missed the doctor that is only there once a week (wtf?) and I'm worrying that they won't accept me. If I take a urinalyses, I would come up clean and even though I look like Hell right now, I doubt they'll take me. Why? I'm trying to think like a doctor and to me it seems like this 19 year old kid tried some opiates and ran out so now that he's a junkie, he wants a fix from methadone. Please tell me that won't happen. The medicine I'm using is running out and starting to lose it's effect. What would most likely happen when I go to the clinic to see the doctor? P.S. I know I coulda just wrote this in like one paragraph but it really helps me to let it out, so I'm sorry for the wall. This site seems like a helpful place so I wanna feel home-y here Thanks
Welcome to the sight. I'm no expert on your exact situation. I would be gesitant to go teh Methadone route since you've been of the H for a while now. Methadone is even harder to kick. Maybe you should just go see a regular doctor? I'm thinking there's a better way to get from where you are to totally clean, without getting hooked on Methadone. After all, you haven't truly kicked if you stay on the Methadone.
Dude if i were you i absolutely would not choose to go on Methadone. If youve already stopped using H, then your doing good. So let me get this straight though....your not using H anymore, and its been 2 months?? If this is the case, just tough it out man with Valium, and whatever else you have been using. If you get on Methadone you will be stuck on it for a while, and that would be a shame. Reason for it being a shame is the fact that you were so close to becoming completely clean, then you dove right back into an Opiate 3-5 times harder to come off than Heroin. If you wanna go see a doc, just go and tell him your situation. Let him know your detoxing on your own, and you just need some stuff to help with the withdrawals. Most of the time they will at least give you some Valium or Xanax, or in the best case scenario they might give you a script for a small amount of OC 5's or something, then you can wean off with those. BTW i have been on Methadone for roughly 1 year now. It has helped me in a lot of ways. But when i got on it i was in the midst of a 500-1000mg OC habit, daily. If your already clean and just experiencing withdrawals, do what i recommended man. For your own good. Good luck bro, you can do it.
Yea, methadone is a shit ton harder to kick than heroin, but you don't even have a habit so do like the above poster said. And I love that scene, where Silvio tears up, that shit is cold. My favorite character from the Sopranos too, but it woulda been Richie if he didn't go sooner.
Thanks, everyone. I can't go to my regular doc because he's the one that's prescribing the Valium and Ultram but he doesn't know shit about my addictions. Hell, he was barely catching on when I would keep asking for Vicodin and that's why he stopped prescribing them (to be fair though he's not an idiot, my back hurts like fuck and my damn X-rays don't show anything). All my drug problems were kept pretty much in secret from just about everyone. I met this one guy who was on Methadone who told me he'd been on it for years, so long that they let him take 6 home. No offense, but with the cravings, anxiety, dick attitude and serious fucking back pain I would rather be hooked on something I know wont fall through. I thought a sober life would be better but fuck that. All that time I was on drugs, I never really noticed how much my back hurt and with that said, I would rather honestly live a shorter albeit actually happy life than a longer, more socially acceptable sober life. I just need one fucking good connect and I'll get back on track.. :/
well if ur off the heroin, and gone through WD then just never use again or you will go through that pain. its not worth it. ur off. tell ur doc you need some valium or xanax or something else. or do some k to numb the pain.
I'm not "gone" through WD, it's still happening now.. The Valium I'm taking, fucking 5mg is barely doing anything. I have to pop at least 4 for some effect. What's K btw?
Stick out the w/d's. This shit is lame, you just need to man up. I'd hate to see what Methadone would do to your fragile ass.
I agree with does2. Don't go the methadone route. WD's suck, but eventually they end. Your body seems to have a strange reaction to opiates as you had a delayed WD period. Keep taking the valium (5mg tabs are weak so you may benefit from taking more), take immodium, smoke as much weed as needed and try to eat anything you can keep down (soup's good and it's not so bad if it comes up again). If you can get to sleep without kicking yourself awake every minute then sleep. If you keep kicking, don't try. I found this just agitates me further. I really feel for you. You're in a crap place now, but it will pass. Best of luck to you.
WTF??? The few times I've tried Ketamine, it tranquilized the crap out of me. I have no idea what that has to do with vice.
Ohh Ketamine, yeah the animal thing. I would try all that shit but I don't have any real good contacts. And the guy who suggested bud, no freaking way. I hate bud. But anywho yeah I've been going to the clinic the last two days and the methadone is working. They started me on a small dose and I'm gonna keep going up until all my symptoms are gone. So far, so good. BTW is it pronounced metha-DON or metha-done? I heard it both ways.
20mg but now I'm on 40mg. I hate how it makes me sleepy even at 20mg but just about every symptom I was suffering from is gone now. It's been really helpful, I was surprised.
If just about every symptom is gone, then keep at 40mg. This way when you start tapering it wont take so long, or be so tough. They started me on 20mg too, i was like "you know thats not nearly enough." Needless to say, i kept having to use on the side until i got to 50mg, then i was stable and didnt have to chip away anymore.
They just got me on 50mg because I started to get a LOT of anxiety and I was easily aggravated. I agree I should of just been kept at 40. I could of just used some Klonopin, it used to do wonders for my anxiety when I used to take it. And does2, it is an animal tranquilizer/anesthetic isn't it?
