Weird...

Ok, well I know I've already made a thread about me acting weird when I'm high but it's only gotten weirder. When I am high I BARELY say a word, I basically just get lost in my own mind. I think that everyone knows I'm being awkward and weird. I also tried snowboarding high and couldn't do it for shit when all of my friends were as good as they were sober and I had to just sit there and film. Also when I'm high I can barely think and forget my shit everywhere, I know those are two normal things but its VERY bad for me. When I try to talk I can barely relate to the conversation because I'm so lost in my own thoughts, all of this gets worse everytime I smoke. But if this only happened when I was high I wouldn't be worried, the thing is everytime I smoke the next day I seem more dazed and in my own world then the day before. I often find myself isolating myself in my room when I get home from school till I go to bed, I love being alone, I am VERY socially awkward and a huge space shot. I am showing most symptoms of early shctizophrenia besides the dellusions, has anyone else exprienced this?

 

Just stop smoking pot.

I thought I was fucked up and crazy when I was your age. I actually thought I was bi polar and schizo but now looking back on it I was just a dumb kid.

Your not crazy, your just growing up. I have a friend who's really quiet when he's bake and no one cares..

Nothings wrong.

 

stop smoking dude.
simple

i'm kind of a loner too, and like being alone
but what's wrong with that - unless you take it to an extreme.

i have experienced negative reactions from weed. i didn't take my own advice and stop smoking, but it got better.
maybe you are just getting TOO high? smoke less?

 

Maybe smoking isnt for you or you should just be a casual smoker and not smoke that much?
Thats never really happened to me..
The only time ive gotten stooped like that while i was high was because i smoked a large amount of really good weed.

 

Yeah if this continues for much longer I am going to cut down. I think it might be because of my Social Anxiety Disorder because I have friends and live a normal life just I am much more shy when I am high, I talk when I'm with my close friends but when I'm at like a party or with people I don't know I kinda just sit there and space out because I feel like I'm going to look dumb.

 

no, just take a break now. just stop smoking. you're fine dude. trust me.

 

i'll try but it'll be hard because i'm always around it.

 

You're fine.
Whenever I get really baked, the mental aspect of being so high just takes over and I sit there not able to contribute anything to conversation that's going on. I don't like being stoned all the time, so I fixed it by cutting down how much I smoke.

At this age it's pretty easy to get lost in yourself, growing from kid to teenager.. find what's right for you. If pot keeps making you feel fucked up, slow down to a pace where you feel comfortable or stop altogether.

 

Hmnn, IMHO opinion, you appear to be showing signs of introversion.
Its no big deal, it just means you are more of a inner being then a social one. Statistically around half the population has it to a certain degree, but you don't really hear or notice it since we all live in a very much extroverted society, where its cool to be out partying and socialising and surrounded by people 24/7, while spending time in a comfortable atmosphere (home) at peace and by yourself is considered a losers life - no matter what you are doing...

In reality, you will either learn to live with yourself, or you wont. Look it up, see how much it applies to you, and realize you probably are not crazy, and even if you are, remember crazy is just a somewhat negative term for a different perception of reality, and reality may not be as real as sane humans perceive it to be.

Oh btw, your age is a very big thing. I remember myself being extremely awkward at that age, especially when high... learn to give less of a fuck as soon as possible, it will help alot. And with time you will learn to realize that weed is not a big deal, and you dont have to be the loudest attention whore in the room - try to be at peace with yourself.

 

Yeah man, if you don't like how it makes you act/feel, then stop.

Personally, I act weird, whether I'm sober or stoned. lol

 

oh no i love how it feels the only thing i'm worried about is my friends thinking i'm weird that i don't talk when i get high.(i care a lot about what people think about me)

 

yeah, i am introverted alright.

 

I always get really quiet when I'm stoned too. If your friends don't like you being quiet, fuck it. It doesn't matter. It doesn't affect them, in any way. It's better than acting all stupid and loud and getting on everyone's nerves, like a lot of people do.

 

This is what you need to fix.
You shouldn't care what people think of you man.. haha.
People only matter to a certain extent.. like i only care what my close friends think about me and sometimes not even them.. they dont matter its YOU that matters if he doesnt like you the way you are then you need new friends....


Im just sillly, wierd, quiet, loud, talkative, clumsy.... all the time except sometimes when im high it gets increased..

Like last night for example we were sitting outside smoking a cigarette and it was like 20 degrees and i was wearing some thing as scrubs and this thin green hoody and i sat down on this like stone bench thing and we were all chillin and hanging out and then i realized that my ass was cold and i was sitting there and i was thinking then i go 'omfg my ass is cold! I never thought i would say that.." hahahah
It was so silly and they just thought it was funnny.
Sometimes im more quiet and sometimes im not it all depends on the environment and what we are doing and my mood.

 

yeah i realize that but i just can't help it, no matter how much i say to myself 'fuck them if they don't like who i am then thats to bad' i always seem to over think what i do and if i do something that made me look dumb it really gets me down. my friends dont judge me but i'm just paranoid that they will and i can't help it. idk if that makes sense because i know that they won't.

 

once again, age thing.

You can grow out of it, but it is you who will need to change, in baby steps.

You have to try and realize, your friends, unless they are retarded, are thinking that you are pretty stoned... Most likely they like you, otherwise they will not spend time with you...
Seriously, its no big deal, acting stupid does not hurt anyone, if anything its a lolfest... some people cant let go and be stupid for shit.

 

Well then your insecure about yourself?

 

yeah i guess but i'm not really sure why...

 

This is why ..... ^^^^


You will grow out of it and be ok.

 

Spend a while thinking about what you don't like about yourself. Then spend a long time fixing that shit = less insecurity... also, teenage shit...
Fuck school screwed up so bad, it took a lot of retrospecting to get my shit straight again