I really need advice guys

Whats up guys im going through some weird shit right now. I used to do idk if id say alot of drugs but ive dabbled in my fair share of them. Im not gonna go into it too much we all know where im comming from. But as of idk id say 8 - 10 months ago my thoughts have become completely derranged and paranoid. idk what to do...i have conversations with ppl and immediately connect what they say to something in my life. I take it as a personal attack....thus the reason for my anti social behavior. I used to trip alot took some lsd boomers and i went through this period where i was on this psychedelic binge. Now that im off that cloud im back into "reality" and i took with back with me all these negative thoughts. i never used to think like this, i have no doubt it is due to the drugs ive done. How can i fix my mind and get back to the person i was. This is a terrible way to live. I was thinking about taking a little bit of boomers or cid again maybe as a way to rewire my brain. Im gonna go into the trip with a purpose...to fight these demons and get out of this hole im in...is this a good idea? im really running out of them guys help/thoughts would be great. Thanks for reading

 

Well Idk if taking more is going to help you if you think its what caused your problems. You just need to train yourself to chill. Go hang out with people and drink alot of beer. If you are going to do more acid then try taking little tiny doses like 1/10 hit.

 

go to church

 

well honestly i dont wanna take more. im not sure if it will help really. has anyone else experienced a change in their personality

 

@largeamount

huh? god wont help me

 

Yeah I do a bunch of acid and turn into a different person every time. Thats one of the reasons I do it because I am bored being the same. So yeah don't take any more it sounds like you need to remember who you are again.

 

ok if you "have no doubt it is due to the drugs" you've done, then why would you consider doing more drugs as a way to "rewire" your brain?
Try exercising, eating healthy, meditating, deep breathing relaxing....
Lay off substances for a while. They're not for everyone. And if you do decide to take more psychedelics you need to moderate your use.

 

you said you wanted to fight demons i dont think you can do that outside of church

 

legally

 

^lol.

 

Stop doing psychedelics. These are classic schizoid symptoms and this is exactly how they happen. Stop drugs completely and if these negative thoughts, paranoia, and egoistic delusions persist see a doctor.

 

You don't seem that bad. Same shit happened to me, a little bit, but you just gotta relax it. You seem to be aware of the problem so it's a good start, people obviously aren't insulting you, just try and re connect with a sense of humor and realize when people are just joking. It's easy to lose your sense of humor and pick up on people just playing around when you get paranoid lol. I've seen it happen to a bunch of friends.

As for redosing, it doesn't always just magically fix all your problems, so I couldn't really recommend whether that's a good or bad option. You just gotta know what you can handle and when it's the right time for you. If it's only added problems to your life, then I don't see why it would do the opposite this time around. Try meditating, that helps me relax my mind somewhat when tripping/sober.

 

It seems your mind is getting the best of you. Nothing new from me, the other posters got it.

Practice Breathing exercises (counting, deep or focused)
Practice Meditation

 

Realize that there's no seperation between you and everything and everybody around you.

Do the thoughts bother you, or do the thoughts lead to a bad feeling? the passing of a thought is no problem. The belief in a thought is a big problem, which generally leads to an inner sort of contraction. that's what i mean by "bad feeling" precisely.

Try to pinpoint exactly what it is that's bothering you. the thoughts? the feelings from the thoughts, etc. know what i'm saying?

As far as schizophrenia goes, i'm really interested in this topic, but i wouldn't go assuming right away that you have it. though i personally don't really know precisely what it means to be schizo or just to be insane in the first place.

 

^ google it and youtube it. xioux.

 

@China and Mr.Writer

is it possible that these symptoms will worsen you think? i dont know what i would do if i was schizophrenic i mean honestly i have some symptoms (took the test online) dont know if they are legit but from what i took i have a little of it. I can function in society its not like im insane....but ive definitely become more comfortable being alone and dont really care about other people or being around them.

 

they can worsen yes. they can also get better or stay the same.

 

as if they are the all-mighty answers to everything? i've already done that multiple times for months, and even learned about it in my psychology class. yet i'm still quite unclear what it really means to be schizophrenic or insane. they are all such broad and elusive terms is all i'm saying.

everyone has their own opinion of what it means to be crazy.

 

What's crazy depends on the person. I've met some schizophrenics that were very genuine underneath their supposed illness. But yeah, the label is sort of some catch-all thing in psychology. A lot of people "Talk to them selves" mentally, or hear voices, I guess it's when it's involuntary / effects ones live negatively that it's some sort of disorder.

 

I have had the same problems and even went to a mental hospital. I was prescribed haloperidol which is an anti psychotic. Those are effective so if you really have no other options do that. The problem i had with haloperiol though is it completely wiped me out the following day to the point i could barely stay awake at work.

What other people have said should help: exercise, eat properly, meditation, church, maybe even AA or some sort of related drug program.

If you insist on going the psychoactive route (which i did as well even after the antipsychotic medication) i recommend trying ecstasy instead of LSD or mushrooms. I don't know if you have done it before but i find ecstasy elevates my mood, confidence an overall outlook on life alot more than LSD or mushrooms.