I'm failing at college, it is the second worst normal pain I've felt

My academic success has always been proof that I am functional. That with my eccentricities and faults and baggage I still can and do manage to make a decent, vanilla future for myself.

Academic success allows me easier access to the peace corpse, foundation for my art, and respect from my family and friends.

I don't think I am very used to feeling normal pain. It doesn't go away and never feels so bad. It never crushes me, I am never staggering in tears. it is a pain that comes from truth and though I did work hard it comes from consequences I could have avoided. Of course in a second I'd take unalterable academic failure to remove some blemishes from my past, but it is so odd to fail so normally.

Enough of my whining, to observations it is weird I can't tell women who know all my secrets that now I am on probation because I feel their respect for my lies in that, I might be odd, different, and unstable but I am smart in that special generic way which academic so conveniently can label.

It happens, people fail college classes, ( or two that happened to be the second most important class for my major, proof of my merit as a upper classmen, taught by a teacher who is not only the head but was a shoein to write me my recommendation) and I have a chance to get back up still, and graduate at the right time, and I was wondering if any of you have gotten back after performing poorly at university.

(title should be changed to worst pain I've felt that had nothing at all to do with women)

 

Well I suprised myself and got nothing below a C in my first semester at college.

But my friend, who's substantially smarter than me (He scored a 2200 on the SAT, 400 points above me) failed something like 4 classes, and got a C and a D in his first semester. And he didn't even party or anything. And I partied my ass off. And I'm VERY sure in the end he will graduate and do some amazing shit, knowing him.

Don't worry about it, it's a number. Try again, and try harder.

 

try = attempt with minor effort and hope for the best.

do = put in real effort to get the best.