Panic Attack

It seems like iam working my way up to a panic attack whenever i smoke pot...Its been growing and growing...before id just stay glued to my couch watching television but lately its almost like iam leading myself up to one big apakaloza where i just go ape shit crazy and then come back down to my normal self...Its really strange though, like i get high and its like smoking a small panic attack and then the next day i wake up calm and normal as fuck....This is why i normally take a long walk when iam stoned...But with the weather taking a turn for the cold it seems like its gonna be an inside one.....Some thoughts on how i get this shit over with because its almost like i want it to happen Lol

 

youre not thinking any faster than you are when youre not high... Say it to yourself.. OHM..

 

HAHA.
... hence my decision to stop smoking pot. =] Do it. You'll feel better for it. Trust me. You don't need this shit in your life. That's what I told myself.. and now I don't think I'll ever touch the stuff. Apparently, you can get PTSD from a bad weed trip. That's scary enough...

 

Perhaps you should stop smoking these little panic attacks. That would be the sensible answer.

 

Don't give up on weed. Face your fear like a man.

 

no.. trust me. give up on it.
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you'll be fine. you don't need any drugs to be happy or to "open your mind." take my word--KEEP IT AS CLOSED AS POSSIBLE.

 

I liked my first panic attack on weed, I almost thought I was having a serious flash back. I had all the symptoms of a panic attack, without the panic, rofl. It was weird, and I was kind of worried about what was happening, but I liked it too. I don't know. What I find relaxes me most is when I control my breathing, and take slow deep breaths whenever anxiety starts to build up in me. Pot can either rile you up, or be the best relaxant you ever known. Either way, I feel once you're high you can bring it either way, just gotta take those deep slow breaths.

Best of luck

 

im relaxed, thank you very much.

 

Yeah but i love weed...Its really weird too.....I went from being laughy and a chilled out high to realizing a bunch of shit in my life at once and its like woah, i was just hit with reality kind of high.....Iam just riding it through until these things stop and if it doesnt stop ill most likly quit saving alot of money and my lungs...Swoosh kinda hit it right.....And its always changing, like one night ill have a happy high and then the next night a laughy one and then the next night its like the end of the fucking world high where iam just walking around worrying about my life. Lol...I normally get a good laugh in though...And to my squriell friend orison, the OHM shall work lol....If it doesnt change within a week iam gonna quit

 

If your brain is doing thinking that you don't like, all you can do is be aware of that, and dominate it be thinking what you really want to think about. I used to think uncontrollably and would have depressing thoughts, that was before I realized I am complete control. Weed really helps you practice this, because yes, being high can make it harder to control your thoughts, and I think of it like a game I try to get as high as much as I can, and get as high as I can so that I dominate everything and don't need to be scared of anything. That's my perspective, weed just helps me be more badass.

 

that's not a bad idea but lately i feel like i just don't want to do it because of .. well, i kind of feel guilty to be honest. hiding it from my parents, doing it in secret. i feel like its sort of childish. ive got 2 days off from school and if i was still a stoner, id be getting high today instead of looking for volunteer work like im doing now.

 

are you anxious about a specific thing when you're high?

 

I usually have a thought about how psychotic i went floating through my mind Lol

 

oh well do you go psychotic when you're high or do you just have anxiety haha?

 

There is no reason to feel guilty. That is just because society has brainwashed you into thinking it is bad. Think for yourself, only feel guilty if you know that you did something that YOU know is wrong. I think your parents are being childish for not being accepting of a widely used herb.
If you would not be doing what you normally do, then actually mabey you are right, if you can't be responsible and get high before you do your volunteer work, then mabey weed is a bad idea for you. You should smoke it sometimes and try to continue your life routine while you are high.

 

you know what...
i can't give it up
im so conflicted about it, lately. i've been buying weed, throwing it out, buying it again, then throwing it out. vowing never to do it, then wanting to do it. this is really bad. my mind is at war with itself. it all stems from some kind of fear i have that getting high will give me panic attacks (as it has before). i WANT to get high but i don't want the after-effects. does this make sense??

 

it makes perfect sense, what you have to realize (if there is nothing specific making you anxious besides the fact that you're high) is that there is ZERO reason to have anxiety and there is nothing to fear about weed and just sit back and enjoy it. just say that in your head when you start to get paranoid.

 

i always think of people getting depersonalization and stuff from weed. maybe you've heard of the illness..? it's some form of PTSD attributed to marijuana.

i suppose i fear becoming one of these people who feel "life is a dream." i fear a lot of the crap i've incessantly been reading about on the internet. that's probably one of the MAIN reasons i've had this aversion to blazing.

 

I find the best way to avoid being afraid of something you read on the internet, is to stop looking for that type of thing on the internet. It sounds glib, but I'm serious.

Last year, I started having panic attacks 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It seemed to never go away. I ended up in emerg twice because I seriously thought I was dying. Part of what was causing my panic was looking up some of my "symptoms" on the internet, trying to figure out what was wrong with me. For example, I was having small pains in the left side of my stomach, so i looked that up, and the number of serious things that could be terrified me. Turned out, it was hunger pains because I hadn't been eating due to the panic attacks.

The internet can be your best friend, and the best way to find knowledge, but it can also scare the bejeesus out of you.

 

that COMPLETELY and utterly makes sense. i had one small episode of disorientation after having smoked a couple of joints one week, and i looked up "marijuana and anxiety." following that i diagnosed myself with having had an episode of derealization and depersonalization, not to mention a marijuana-induced anxiety disorder. this obsessing led me to have yet another attack several weeks later (at the same place the other one occurred). a month after stopping weed, i had a very brief one and was back on the computer trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

i think this is the way they get you, really. if they can convince you you have an anxiety disorder, you are then a great candidate for their prescriptions.

it's very hard, however, to exit--if you will--the loop. everytime i feel a rising heartbeat, i think "oh no, i'm having a limited syndrome panic attack." how STUPID is that?

ive resorted now to a method i think i should have adopted a long time ago--LAUGHING AT MYSELF. laughing for being foolish, gullible.