i have a question

how do you get rid of a negative thought associated with getting high because of a bad trip (or whatever it be) in order to start smoking again?

is it safe to smoke despite having panic attacks because of it?

my qualm is that i require the altered percpeption in some critical, primitive way because of being a writer. i cannot get the same creative energy, and i have almost certainly stopped writing new poetry since my decline in marijuana use. i need to, if you will, get back on the wagon (haha!).

i was just wondering if anyone had any advice, anything at all, to bring peace to me... and to give me some reassurance that i will be ok if i resume the bud again

thank you.

 

You already know the answer - but you dont want that. So - Yes, it will be safe to smoke.

 

i like your presupposition that i don't want that. maybe that is a fundamental mistake in my thinking. thank you for pointing that out ..and of course, thank you for the answer.

 

It's your job to weigh out the positives and negatives. What's worth it? But panic attacks can be avoided if you learn how to manage, deep slow breaths and meditation help me get past some problems like that. Or if your usage is making you guilty, change your mind.

 

... maybe there is even a way to eliminate the after-effects.

 

Just take a few hits, let it take effect, then take a couple more hits a few minutes later, and so on,, until you are as high as you want to be. That way, you can gauge how high you're getting without getting so high that you freak out.

After a while, you'll become more comfortable with smoking larger amounts.

 

^do that^

i would think the bad trips go away after something real significant happens in your life to substitute or just change the way you think. and i assume its why time is suggested to get rid of it.

 

Panic attacks can't kill you...

 

Unless you have a weak heart.

 

that's a good idea...

gee, i wish i hadn't thrown out my stash. i really do things i can't account for later on..

i seem to do fine when i keep off of it. i don't know. maybe i should just keep off of it. i am doing okay... other than wanting to do it. Lol.

 

You threw your stash out That's marijuana abuse:tongue:

Give it a shot though, if you wanna smoke. If you don't want to, then don't.

FYI.....I used to have panic attacks from getting too stoned. It would get so bad that I would actually pass out and start convulsing, because I was concentrating too much on my heartrate. It would be beating so fast that I would start to freak out, which only made it beat faster and it would eventually start beating so fast that my body couldn't take it. My eyes would roll back in my head, then my whole body would start shaking and whatnot. lol I just did like I suggested in my other post, then I got to the point where I was comfortable enough to smoke more and more.

 

I hope so. I just hope it didn't end up in a landfill or something. lol

 

Ya, i used to get panic attacks and severe paranoia smokin weed. But eventually i was smoking all day everyday, so i guess my body got used to it, now i need weed to feel normal and to get energy! So keep tokin bro.

 

i was exercising yesterday, and then i went outside for a walk, and i was really happy. i think i'm done with pot. i don't really need it in my life anymore. i can get a lot of creativity just by looking at the world, meditating on life, thinking, and turning my everyday experiences into art.

but thanks to you (and everyone) for sharing their experiences. i had an instance of disorientation at work once, where it felt like i was high even though i hadn't smoked anything in 2 days. that was a life-changing experience, and episodes like that continued to haunt me (very brief ones). i limited my smoking to once a month, and now, finally, to nothing. i feel comfortable with the idea that i don't need to experience the horror of getting high again, and that ive smartened up enough not to put myself through the horror.

 

i don't know if you should be smoking all day, dude...

 

I'd be smoking all day, if I could still afford to do so:sifone:

 

If getting high becomes a horror to you then for sure it's not worth pursuing.

Everyday smoker. Unsure what I'd do if it started to give me panic attacks...

But you are right, marijuana definitely isn't going to give you anything that isn't already there. It's no magic creativity genius. All of that exists within you already.

Life is an experiment, of course. If it were me I would definitely have to try again even if I had a single paranoia or anxiety attack on the MJ. Just to see. Then again, I like to put things to the test.

Is there a history of recurring paronia and anxiety, or is this a one-time thing that occurred while high?

And really, you ARE poetry, so if anything, despite whether you smoke again or not, shatter smash boom break that idea down that somehow MJ is needed or accents your ability to use language and words.

Smoke, don't smoke, but definitely don't limit your creative being. I like what you say about meditating, art. I've always found good conversation to inspire very strongly. It is difficult as a writer to break solitude, but to get out and have a very deep talk with a single other person for a long time can definitely catalyst, if it's the right person you're talking to I suppose.

call me a weirdo, but I always figured it was God creating through me, so it never really matters whether i'm on a substance or not, because at the time I am becoming the substance through which God is playing, but for a moment.

...

 

that's really wonderful, changingtide. that part about God is something of a revelation. you see, i've never been that religious, but i DO find that writing is a calling of a sort, and that i've been brought here to do it. maybe that is similar to what you feel.

good conversations are great. i seldom have those anymore, however, with the busy world and everyone being too busy to just sit down and have coffee. everyone is always running around with their backpacks, getting to class or having to do essays or reading. and getting together with friends seems to be more of a "let's-get-drunk-and-go-party" type thing (which i don't mind, hah). but maybe you can see what i mean. the best conversations i have, sadly, are with my parents over a beer. lol.

this was a one-time thing that i blew out into epic proportions, so part of it was MY fault. i don't have any history of anxiety or depression. ya, i did try it a few times after the episode, but it wasn't the same. i wouldn't get panic attacks, but i would get nervous about doing it, and most of the time i didn't value the experience of being high and would just eat a lot to get sober again. lol.

you're brave to say that you would put yourself in that situation of paranoia and anxiety. i wouldn't just because i don't know what kind of long-term effects smoking pot often could have on me.

 

lol do something else!

 

Is anything else WORTH doing all day? lol