recently i've been in really grey and melancholy mood like i need something in my life. ive been kinda stressing because i dont have a job, i havent been in a relationship or had affection in a very fuckin long time, i feel very detached from everyone, i've been drinking away reality for a while, and i just feel like shit. haha I haven't smoked grass since november and im going to buy some tommorow cuz of old times sake of remembering my roots, a more healthier alternative instead of drinking, and just for relaxing. I'm just questioning if i should buy some acid too since i have the option. They say acid can shake up problems in your life and help, but at the same time someone shouldnt go into a trip stressed in case of a bad trip. i think a good trip can snap me out of this hellhole im in right now but at the same time, the dissociative properties might dig a bigger hole. what u think?
i dont know man, i've tried at times to do the same thing with different amounts of weed or lack thereof. i think i've realized i just need to go about whatever i can change the best i can...i don't have the balls to trip when things are going great, let alone when i have any significant stress.
I'd buy some while you have the chance and stash it away. give yourself a few weeks of grass smoking instead of drinking to mellow back out and then go for a little trip. It'd be a healthy build up to what could be a beneficial trip. Being in the right mindset doesn't mean there aren't any problems in life, it's just being at a point where you can look at them and not freak out. I wouldn't want to be under the physical or mental dirress of stress before dosing, but that's more about controlling the time and space around yourself than other things. trips definitely helped pull me away from alcohol a while ago. It could be a nice way to shift into some positive behavior.
Its a double edged sword. A trip with good vibes may just help you figure out why you're so melancholy, but a bad trip could just take your bad feelings waaaay too far and blow em waay out of proportion. Ultimately its your choice. Personally I'd stop drinking and spend that money on bud, but thats just me.
i get the drinks for free haha but quitting alcohol is harder than quitting meat. and thx changingtide, that helps a bunch and makes perfect sense.
Acid helped me fix issues in my life but I wasn't expecting that. In fact, I was expecting to have a great trip but it went the other way around. I was slapped in the face with a serious reality check...which was good for me in the long run. I tried doing some more acid the following couple of weeks and it was interesting, but than again, I got another reality check that helped me, but I haven't done it again ever since. I prefer fixing the remaining issues of my life before doing amy more acid. I have better trips when I'm okay and have full control of my life. I suggest you do the same.
you should give me your connection since i'm in so cal too and I will let you know if it should be taken or not.
^^lulz^^ I say you should do it, you can get a deep spiritual connection with yourself on acid and think in a totally different way. Usually LSD makes you a better person afterwards, and it helps you figure alot of shit out about your life. I would dose alone, somewhere you are confortable and do some deep thinking and meditation.
It sounds like you're in a rut. LSD is very good for that. I'd also suggest going out more, maybe with a new group of people. Meet some chicks.
I can't say if lucy will have the same effect or not, but ... After a romp in the hay with a decent dose of 2CE and I feel like the haze from my eyes has been cleaned. So if it's any consolation, yes. And don't worry about the funk your in now. LIFE CHANGES RAPIDLY. Now, I don't want to sound like a nanny, but smoking the grass is WAY better for you spiritually, mentally, and emotionally than drinking ever will be. I can't say how it will go in your life, but in my life alcohol always led me to a certain area of unhappiness and dissassitifaction, and as counter-intuitive as it sounds it took me truly embracing marijuana, among other drugs, to be able to make that break from what was otherwise a very negative and consuming cycle. Then again, i'm one of those dirty hippies that things alcohol is the devils brew, so I wouldn't trust TOO much of what I say None the less, I dearly hope you get the chance to take the trip you're debating. It's worth the ticket.
I take trips and I "could" consider myself having the same "problems" as you. I'd say at worst you'll come out of the trip the same person you are already, or with a few realizations at hand. What you make of the realizations is dependent upon you however. Best of luck.
dude if your really 19 i think all you need is a ladyyyyy in yo life. haha. a lot of people use acid as a tool to work things out in their heads. personally, tripping on acid in the state you described cud either make or break you. if youve never done acid i woulndt recommend it, are you gonna be tripping with friends? i say you just smoke fucking like 3 blunts and get retarded high, especiallly if u havnt smoked in awhile. dnt forget weed is a psyke' lol. sometimes if i smoke a lot of bud i feel like im tripping. good luck man
so i did stop drinking, i started smoking again, i've fried before(5 times before), and i don't really have friends to hang with while frying. i fried yesterday and it was pretty much a crash and burn. i tried to eat the blotters early enough so my mom and her bf didnt come home. I had great visuals, very euphoric, but after a while i started worrying about a bunch of things. It got pretty bad and got in my car and just drove for a long time (i was worried about parents coming home, and my trip wasnt visual at this point). i parked some where 4 cities away and just had an emotional breakdown about not having friends, the reasons for it, my huge lack of self-confidence, the lack of a job, and just self-worth. I know people aren't supposed to get caught up in their self when tripping but i guess it was just a bad time to fry. I was looking through my contacts of anyone i can talk to, i found a friend that moved to Arizona but even then i didnt know how to explain things without sounding absolutely psycho. i couldn't have felt anymore alone in my life. and i couldnt stop thinking like that until about 10pm, 14 hours after i took my blotter. the trip actually kinda did help me, but for the most part, it's what Skizm said: it made the problems more trivial. It helped me cuz it made me appreciate being sober a lot more, and released a bunch of emotions i've been bottling up. But it doesn't compare to the unnecessary stress i put myself through. I think i'm gonna pass on psychedelics for a long while.
can't drink away and ignore your problems for 8 months and expect them to be washed away by taking acid one night. You've gotta put at least 3-4 months of WORK to fix them. As for my opinion, you'll have PLENTY of time to bitch about DOING your job when you have one later, so I wouldn't stress too hard about not having one. As for the friends joint, looks like you may still be looking to find "yourself" in others and affection, and that's just a never-ending road of chase chase chase my friend. These days I'm very okay with me and my conscious. The rest are just interesting added bonuses to possibly think about.
