hello all.

Because of this fact, the moment you off yourself you will want to get back on, realizing what you had just done was a waste of time.

 

ITS CALLED HORMONES DUDE WHY THE FUCK DO YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF..i know people that commited suicide, dont think youre doing anything fucking good for anything

that shit aint cool man, youre gonna make so many people miserable that you wouldnt even expect. think about your parents

 

Ok, this thread has been interesting so far but we all need to focus at the problem at hand. Just for the fact that there have already been some very passionate replys alone says alot about how people feel about this subject. Even if we don't know who the OP is, that does not matter, there have been some people here that care enough to say how they feel about it. I don't think there are many people in this world who could honestly not say they have contemplated killing themselves at one point or another. We all know that Purp has some very strong feelings about this and I am happy to see that contemt yet, I don't think he really knows the deep dark hole that some people face everyday of their lives when they are thinking about doing this act.

I can however, from my own personal experience, say that that hole can go very far. I am now 40 years old, as some of you might know, and I have fought with these demons from a very early age. The first time these thoughts would come to my mind was revenge. "This will teach them, when they miss me and know they drove me to do this, they they will know just how much something someone could say or do affected me and my life." Now, quotes may not have been needed here but I am sure you could all add in a name or action here and there and could come up with something you said to yourself at one point or another. Life is a struggle and was never ment to be easy. Sometimes those hurdles in life are harder for others. When I was in high school I was not the most popular of students, not that I was some kind of recluse or dark soul that would wander the halls but school for me was not easy and I did not have a lot of friends. I had a few close ones, like I do now but I was not one of any click or group. I often thought of taking my own life more than once. One of the things that the doctors will tell you is the more you think about it the less hard the idea becomes. I guess that can be said about anything. However, that is not what I am trying to get at here. I guess I have so much to say and as again, a lot of you know, I can talk about a thing for a very long time. I have faced these dark thoughts more than once in my life and I can also say that I have even made the attempt at one point. When I did, I did not let on to anyone what I was doing. Because doing that to myself was one of the lowest points of my life. I was pushing people away from me. At that point you don't care, about anything. Because I was unsuccessful in taking my own life I found that I no longer had the energy to take the next step and finish the job. I spent a little time in a hospital. I went on the drugs and the counceling and so on. None of that was more important than my family and friends. People do care. It is a selfish act. No matter how bad it is there is always someone who cares enough for you not to.

I am now a very happy person for the most part. No one is ever really truly happy with every aspect of their life, if I am wrong then you are a better person that I am. However, I can say that if I was no longer in this life I would have missed out on so much more. I would not have met my new wife to be, I would not have a new house, I would not have met anyone on the SL and I would not have discoverd pot. Not to say that I did not smoke once or twice before but I did not really pick up the habbit until after my little problem. Not that I am saying that pot solved my problems but they do take them and make them not as important to me. Needless to say I can get worked up over a lot of little things. One of the reasons I call smoking weed to taking the stick out of my ass.

Long story short, only because I think I made my point. Like I said I could go on and on. No matter how hard life is, or how deep the hole is you can always come out on top. Life is what you make of it. The point was made that this is a public forum. Yes it is. The reason I choose to open up and share with everyone here is not for the people I don't know but for the people that I do. If you know who I am and I don't know who you are that fact that you made it a point to share this information on this forum is the so called "cry for help". You don't really want to do this, otherwise you would have already done so and not told us about it. Besides, no one really schedules themselves to die. You are just looking for that reason to live. I have one for you. Someone who truely wants to kill themselfs is not going to come on here and want to talk about it, they want to be talked out of it. You have done that. Now, follow the advice as it has been outlined here on this thread. Go, see someone. Talk to someone. If you want, talk to me. I don't think that there has been anyone who has replyed here that would not be willing to talk about this. I have lived twice as long as you and I can tell you my life has changed, more than once. For better or worse life is always going to be interesting.

Besides, I know that if there was only one reason to stay alive is that Avatar 2 will be coming out in a few years. How could anyone want to miss that.

I am not making light, just a little joke to lighten the mood. If that made you at least smile, that is reason enough. I can guarantee that there is really no reason to kill yourself. Dispite what you think.

 

qft.
believe it or not, happy enough can be enough. so many people have it so hard these days. contentment is a good thing.

 

nobody is truly happy no matter what, dont care if that sounds emo. life sucks, its our job here to get through that shit. man up, dont kill yourself

 

In the scheme of things our lives are but a blink of-an-eye, and yet there must be some purpose to our lives other than simple procreation (and some of us don’t even do that)

There must be some deeper profound mystery that’s just beyond our grasp or comprehension and I for one will not give up that search even If it kills me


hotwater

 

someone get the OP some acid.

 

Pretty sure I might know who OP is, and I would gladly send said person some psychs, but if it is who I think it is, OP does not like psychs.

In the end you'll make your own choice and no one can stop you, but just remember that relief is a feeling.

Everyone here has posted some good advice. My suggestion is to think about life as an old friend, who's kind of like an asshole. To get anywhere, you have to fuck with each other, but that's also the reason for why the friendship is.

 

Personaly I do believe in this a lot. I feel that things do happen for a reason. If I did not kick out my ex wife and then I would not have met my new wife to be, who is a much better person, at least for me than the ex was. Everything has it's own reason for happening. It's that whole, a butterfly flaps it's wings thing and as a result a tornado happens. Things happen in our lives and we affect other peoples lives in ways we will never truly understand. I guarantee that the OP's life matters, no matter how much they think it wont.

 

That would end in such epic fail

 

You're a teenager, teenagers go through a lot of ad stuff like what you're going through now. I can't even count how many times I wanted to end my life when I was a teenager. Think of your family, and all the people that really do care about you.. even if it doesn't seem like they do, they really do. And if you need somebody to talk to you can PM me for sure. Really think hard about what you're doing.

 

http://www.a1b2c3.com/suilodge/metfun1.htm

if youre gonna do it, you might as well be individual about it so that way you aren't COMPLETELY like all the fucking idiot cunts that have been successful.

the above link is for some inspiration, don't go directly by those lines, be more original and add your own flare

or be funny
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLoZHs2FdHs"]YouTube- Nick Swardson - Suicide

 

feel free to pm too, like I said I've been there, to the point I wrote out the letter, then the letter was found, only problem was I wasn't dead yet, talk about awkward.

 

@PurpByThePound

Dude, ok, I get how you feel about the subject. I am glad that you have such a strong opinion about it. You don't want to ever encourage someone to end their life. You would not feel good about it. I get where you are trying to come from. You think that it's a waste.

The funny thing is I think you should be the person who this person need to talk to about it. I think you might both learn something. If you were to listen to this person, I mean really listen. It's all about walking a mile, you know?

Thanks

 

this person is a complete joke. obviously they are knowledgeable...they are being completely careless, inconsiderate and attention-seeking. im giving this person attention.

believe me, i understand the seriousness of suicide and all that jazz. ive sat outside my gun cabinet contemplating, ive spent hours in front of the mirror with only a single thought of self-loathing, ive judged building heights and effectiveness in death, ive driven dark windy roads going considerably over the speed limit in the median hoping id lose control of the car or hit something...ive done very careless things and in retrospect they were all stupid and unfortunate things.

im lucky enough i never did anything drastic...

when i was going through things that i feel could be similar to the OP's i fiddled with the concept of cutting myself and causing other self inflicted pain...im just as serious as everyone else in here, ive had plenty of encounters with severe depression and im fully aware that i will have bouts of depression more intense than i have yet experienced - this kid just angers me, as im sure you all can see...it really does make a mockery out of people who have to battle themselves every day (by saying things like "ive already made up my mind" and "nothing can change")


i dont think teens acting selfish like this should be coddled, they should be told bluntly how they are acting

everyone has thoughts of suicide, some more serious than others. i know personally, i will battle it my entire life - but when im not feeling the full effects of my depression i have the sense enough to realize i wont end it

i dont feel like suicide is a completely and entirely horrible thing, but the intense and vast majority are awfully retarded. especially teen suicide

 

Well said dude! See, like I said passionate. I do feel you would be a good person for the OP to talk with. It takes all kinds of love. Thanks. I was just trying to say you can tell them off just don't tell them to do it. I know a small distiction but you are not one of those assholes who would stand at the base of a building and yell "JUMP!!" You would be just as concerned.

I would give you rep if I could, but I already did on something else.

 

Now listen here man!,if anyone really wants to end thier life then they will,they dont usualy talk about it much, just decide then do the deed.
You are not here by accident, there is no randomness involved here,you are here for a reason, & it is not to top yourself thats for sure!.
Hang on in there brother, all things must & will pass as this will.
There are some good people here, the best kind that you are going to find anywhere,Remember the people who love you & how they would feel if you went ahead & killed yourself, & let me tell you there are more than a few who change thier mind halfway through the act as well.So do yourself a favour, get a grip,because we dont want to loose a fellow Hippy like this,
Remember, -Winners never quit, & quiters never win, be strong & Live!.

 

i wish when i was thinking about it also(like 3 years ago) to have 4 pages of people telling me not to! lol

but the point is i also didnt do it and i had only myself to help me not to.

and if i have done it,oh well i would never fucked my exgf which was hot as fire,never flew a plane,never smoked purple weed,never cash a 1300$ paycheck in 5$ bills and feel like lil wayne for 10minutes and other fun stuff life is filled with.

btw the last 2 months my life sucks too,but i just got a membership at the gym so ill be more fit and also feel better.

peace

 

what makes you think that? I believe the opposite.

 

Depressed people should not take acid, for most people it will just to the most awful 8 hours of their life. They may learn things about themselves but it may be things they're not in the state of mind to handle at the current time.